Jayne, tell me how I’m supposed to accept my husband as the right to discipline me? It actually just makes me sick to think my husband has the right to actually hit me.
My husband has corrected me many times (= disciplined me), but he has never struck me or hurt me physically in any way. The fact that it makes you sick to your stomach is probably because of your past experiences of abuse with your former de-facto. So it seems you still under an emotional weight which has not been lifted off you.
And because, on top of that:
she has spent her entire life being indoctrinated that it is unthinkably evil for a husband to physically punish a wife. It is difficult to consider the issue dispassionately under such circumstances.
you cannot imagine that the past way of behaving, that is, for a husband to employ his God-given authority to discipline his wife is the Catholic way.
We have all been indoctrinated in some way, and we have to get to the truth of the matter, rather than accept the brainwashing we have received through the MSM etc. Not easy, not overnight (usually), takes time. You're making progress because you are open, or opening up. Painful!