Jim, first of all I'd like to welcome you to CatholicInfo. You'll get what you're looking for regarding answers to your questions here more-so than any other forum. As for your situation, basically what people on this thread have been telling you sums it up. Look for a TLM, whether it's SSPX, CMRI, FSSP, Independant, etc. As PartyIsOver said, once you attend the TLM for a while, you can never go back to the Novus Ordo (and no it's not sinful to cut down the NO).