One can deduce a few things just from the fact that you are here on CathInfo:
1) You are not literally starving to death.
2) You have some functional level of literacy.
3) You have an internet connection and time to use it.
Millions, in the here and now, don't have even those things. Are you grateful? Do you use your internet access for anything good, or do you just keep wasting it?
Instead of wallowing in self pity, composing litanies of how hard your life is, how about spend equal time listing things to be grateful for?
I do actually feel compassion for you, but it does no good to express it. You don't use the compassion to help yourself up, you ABUSE it, use it as an excuse to keep on with the nonsense. Your attitude is disgusting. It shouts, "I'M A SPOILED BRAT WHO REFUSES TO GROW UP!!!" Isn't that really why you spend so much time here; your shitty attitude gets condoned, at times even praised? I'm not interested in enabling that.
How long before you realize that your life is just that, YOUR LIFE?
Some time back it was recommended that you seek professional help. I can't say that that advice was wrong. Hard as it may be to admit, your biggest problems might be yours, and not due to everyone and everything outside yourself.
I've been assuming all this time that you're being genuine. I hope that you are but, in the interests of honesty, I have to say that I have begun to consider the possibility that you are some kind of deep troll or agent.