This is very thoughtful and helpful, thanks a lot. And you described my situation even better than I did.
I really want to avoid living with my parent again but I don't know how I can refuse, since I wasn't even asked about my opinion on it and I am just expected to do whatever they want. It was always like that growing up.
You are welcome.
Allow me to express my thoughts on your situation once again, and please consult some good priests or some wise friends before taking your decision.
In my opinion, you should not go back to living with your parents, or with just one of them.
Somehow, you were able to move out once, and, from what I can infer, you are financially independent from them. If you move back with them, you will be under their "territorial dominion" once again, since "my house, my rules". It will ruin your mental heath.
If now you sometimes feel like you want to die, once you go back to living with them, you will feel like you want to die a thousand times a day.
Many people would give anything to be in their 20s again and be able to make better life choices. At your age, you can discern a religious vocation, you can discern a married life vocation. You can do anything. You should value this, and not risk going really down into depression by going back to a situation which you have already freed yourself from.
If you already pray five rosary mysteries a day, start praying ten. If you already pray ten, start praying all fifteen. Our Lady will not abandon you.