Thank you josefamenendaz, thank you FlosCarmeli13, thank you everyone. Praying and praying for you too.
I looked at the 16 diseases suggested in that article.. it took some time but it doesn't look like I can find a fit. I will keep them in mind if other symptoms matching these conditions develop. In the meantime I will keep searching.
I will go into detail a bit here.. I have ordered a medical grade genetic test kit, to see if I have any genetic predispositions to certain illnesses. Certainly I have no knowledge of anything like this running in my family. I'll also be getting another private lab test from DirectLabs this time for GI Microbial Assay, since my symptoms seem to worsen with food intake.. whether this is just because my metabolism is no longer slowed down.. or something else, well something else is only a remote possibility but it is desperate straits.
My tremors come in waves.. I get an attack for some hours.. then some miserable times for awhile after but not a peak attack.. then with medication things are just under control enough to function.. but the non attack times are also rising and worsening so that the medication can't keep up. I have to get a new medication soon that works or I'll be unable to care for myself. . and always miserably shaking too much.. that is a very possible future in the coming months. I am trying to get my mother out here to visit and break the news to her.. it's a long drive for a senior citizen.. and hard news to give her when we're supposed to be celebrating Mother's Day, it will break her heart, I've been praying to get better before then.
I see my neurologist next hopefully on the 14th.. then I have scheduled an appt with the department head of neurology on 7-21. Hopefully this will not interfere with the care the neurologist I am seeing provides, my seeking another opinion from his boss. He is overworked right now, he's informed me as much. It's not a timely date for the appt at my current rate of decline if I wind up only seeing his boss with a break inbetween. I hope to get a new medication either shortly (I've requested it again) or on the 14th. Well I have gone on a bit.. it is desperate straits here..
I am doing my best to cling to His Sacred Heart and find consolation therein.. to surrender to Providence.. I am just an ordinary person.. it's hard to escape from the natural feelings of fear and the physical pains of this, most of the time I am unable to, I am not so good. I know it's benefiting me in some ways to suffer like this spiritually, but I would never choose this in a million years if not forced to go through it.. I would far rather travel a gentler path of spiritual communions and living a simple life. I'm normally a private person.. but it's really benefitted me to have the prayers and support here and hear the suggestions... I appreciate everyone's prayers and consoling words from the bottom of my heart.
Well I have gone on awhile.. forgive me.. This is where things are right now. Just wanted to let folks know.