Undoubtedly due to the sins which stain my soul, God has given me a portion of the recompense which I deserve.
Yet, even this wretched and miserable sinner kindly requests the mercy of His Lord & Father the same way that a child begs for forgiveness from his parents. May God have compassion and mercy upon this most unworthy son.
Starting last year, I developed dysautonomia. I constantly have extreme fatigue, pain, heart palpitations, marked blood pressure fluctuations, syncope, cognitive issues, anxiety, and general autonomic abnormalities.
It has become very difficult over the past few months especially. It has gotten to the point that I am afraid to go to Mass & Confession because I am afraid that I may faint. I am the only Catholic in my family and I have no friends I can rely on to help me. My wife and I separated due to my conversion so I am all out of options.
I feel great guilt that I’m not going to the Holy Sacrifice or to the House of God. I feel miserable because I know I deserve all of this and infinitely more yet I complain. I want to be a better Christian though, but how can I do it if I am stuck at home all of the time?
Please pray that God may forgive me my sins and have mercy on me. Please pray for the intercessions of Our Lady. Also please pray to my patron Saint, Bernard of Clairvaux.