If it is the case, the I was a macho.
I remember how I despised the lower classes in my heart,
I remember how I was proud of my race, mocking the awful way minorities spoke our language,
I remember how I scoffed at ladies whose husbands were 2 or 3 months younger than them!
I remember how I was fascinated with bulky men and called slimy ones effeminate,
And then I found a sincere faith in someone having all things I used to despise.
Only the faith can explain my bizarre choice. I know it is natural for people to object.
It is why I need prayer.
The guy is struggling with despair, thinking I am choosing him out of pity.
(sorry to bump this thread, just needed to remind you of our need for your prayers. I know I look like I am making a fuss but i have no other choices)