Matto-PS: I also noticed that around the time you changed your avatar (June?), you took an 18 day hiatus from posting on the forum (June 8 - June 26), which was not typical for you. Just wondered if something bad or challenging happened in your life during that time? I am praying for you.
How long before you changed your avatar did you start taking these prescription drugs?
I ask, because that is about the time we all noticed a dramatic change in the nature of your posts.
May I ask what prescription drugs you are on, and what conditions they were intended to heal?
Please pray for all of us in the New York City area. We need your prayers. It is hard being a Catholic in New York City.
Thank you for your prayers, everyone.What sort of temptations? And I'd echo Seán's question: Are these temptations something you want to do(like for example eating more than you should), or are they temptations to do things you don't want to do(like the call of the void or OCD)?
My hiatus was because I was ill and was hospitalized. I was also spiritually ill and fell into mortal sin. Then I made a good confession and got well and got out of the hospital and was able to start attending Mass again. My hospital stay was harrowing. I will not disclose exactly what medicines I am taking but I have discussed my problems more than I probably should, and they are not a secret. I am not well, but I am trying to get better. I do not think my issue is my medication as I feel alright there, I do believe it is a spiritual problem, basically having strange temptations late at night.
Matto said:Interesting that you asked that because for some reason Matto's situation makes me think of Annaliese Rose and the effect her prescribed drugs had on her obsessions/possession and the efficacy of her exorcism.
"But there are temptations and mine are strange and humiliating."
Response:
Whan you have these "temptations," are they attractive, or repulsive, to you? In other words, I am wondering whether they are really to be categorized as "temptations" or "obsessions."
Ditto everyone else who is concerned.I will show my Cathinfo posts since I got back to my confessor. Thank you.
Matto, please show your posts to your SSPX confessor. A complete and sudden change in a person’s manner of speaking, writing, relating to others is indicative of a chemical imbalance of the brain. Something is wrong here. PLEASE reach out to your priest, your counselor, and your medical doctor. If YOU think nothing’s wrong, then go, armed with CathInfo on your device. Tell the experts that numerous OTHERS think you may be having a bad reaction or complication.
Please go and keep us updated.
Matto said:When they come at the moment they seem attractive.
"But there are temptations and mine are strange and humiliating."
Response:
Whan you have these "temptations," are they attractive, or repulsive, to you? In other words, I am wondering whether they are really to be categorized as "temptations" or "obsessions."
When they come at the moment they seem attractive.
It is hard being a Catholic anywhere.Yes, but living in NYC is much more difficult than, say, a rural area that is free from crime and constant temptation. In NY, I can’t walk out the door and walk a block without seeing or hearing something offensive to Our Lord, even if it’s just the satanic gang tag spray painted on the wall in the alley. I guarantee by the time I get to work, I’ve seen a dozen or more immodest, or persons of indeterminate sex, heard the f-bomb and worse, heard unholy music, and gone past two mosques, a Buddhist temple, and a Hindu temple in the shape of Ganesh. I call these temptations, although to me, any temptation is to anger or disgust rather than attraction.
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Here is the account of the temptation from Genesis 3:
Jesus says that she could have overcome it if she had come to Him. He (http://www.valtorta.org/the_annunciation_defaultpage.asp) says,
She "saw". And seeing, she wanted to try. Her flesh was aroused. Oh! If she had called to God! If she had hurried to Him saying: "Father! The Serpent has caressed* me and I am upset". The Father would have purified and healed her with His breath, which could have infused new innocence into her as it had infused life. And it would have made her forget the snake's poison, nay it would have engendered in her a disgust for the Serpent, as it happens in those who bear an instinctive dislike for diseases of which they have just been cured. But Eve does not go to the Father. Eve goes back to the Serpent. The sensation is a sweet one for her. "Seeing that the fruit of the tree was good to eat and pleasing and agreeable to the eye, she took it and ate it".
[*the "caress" referred to here is understood to be the caress of words, not touch]
[the link you see is from Valtorta's work, that is favored by Bsp.Wmson, whom you mentioned but distracted by some].
Matto, I would start with checking with your doctor about those "prescription drugs" you told us you were taking. I'm concerned.Just want to add that I am praying for you Matto.
Do you not know what's going to happen to cities and, to a lesser but still devastating degree, suburbs when the balloon goes up?
No, I do not know. Please enlighten me. What balloon? I do not watch TV/movies.
Will pray for Matto
I am going to the doctor today for an evaluation of my condition. I will let her know how I am doing and see what she has to say and try to follow her advice. :baby:Thanks all for your prayers.God bless and good luck.