I understood what you were saying, but MF is correct in stating that your living situation is scandalous.
And I'm willing to bet that your struggles with prayer will end when you fix it.
Q: If you aren't attracted "that way", then why do you want to marry anyway? Companionship? It seems to me that you two could remain close friends without marrying and without living together.
There is an easy answer to that. We share a love that just makes us want to be answerable for each other and to spend all our lives together, eg. cooking together, doing groceries & chores together, attending mass & other church community activities together, praying together, being beside each other as we lay down to sleep/pillow talk, etc.
And we cannot do some of that without the Sacrament of Marriage.I do not believe an union between two persons have to be about sex. I used to think that way in my youth but now I am actually quite surprised by the kind of nurturing love that can be shared between two persons who did not put sex as a motivation. Love can be shown by other ways that lasts longer than an orgasm.
Topic: Newly Baptised and Struggling (Read 14857 times)