I'm trying to quit sweets, chocolates, cookies, all sorts of things for two years and I can't. I don't eat every day, but few times a week or less I have a great need to eat maybe 500 g of sweets. One day I ate more than 1 kg of chocolate, and waffle cookie. I am not proud but ashamed of it. Sometimes I endured 1-2 months but broke down again. I will try this Lent to quit once and for all, it is my addiction. I have a chronic gastritis, and last time after 3 days in a row just eating bread I felt so sick and my family pressured me to stop so I did. I will try to fast on bread on water on Fridays and Tuesdays. It will be for this priests, bishops that the see the light of true faith and my family members who are all in the Novus Ordo believing that modernism is catholicism. Also for my wife that is pregnant now at the start of 4th month. It's our first time after 7 years of marriage, natural act and God's miracle. We were preparing to IVF after 2-3 years from wedding, but I realized that it would be againt natural law, and would likely led to murdering embrios. I was alone in this, everyone attacked me including my wife, but thank God she realized and changed her mind. We were both accepted maybe 1-2 years ago that we may never have children if that is God's will. She is not a practising Novus Ordo catholic, much less a traditional one. She has adopted by the society some revolutionary and feminist ideas, nothing too radical of course. I have been myself a modernist without realizing it, I visited multiple times Medjugorje and believed in it like the rest of my family and relatives that are believers. I want this Lent finally to go Latin mass that is more than 100 km away at SSPX chapel and to make confession to SSPX priest for the first time. I have some items I would he bless using traditional form. I don't go to Novus Ordo mass for months, here in Croatia they still have "for all" in consecration of wine and I think that invalidates the Mass. I went only once because of offering mass for my deceased grandparents. Priest is a conservative, but children were behind the altar (chruch is rather small), one lay woman reader is a divorced but not living with another guy. Still I find this inappropiate the least. People were talking before the start, young and older males where I was. Never have I seen but on TLM on youtube that all people kneel at the same time.
Of course, after 2020. more people were receiving Eucharist in the hand, as if it's a donut in bakery. After this inflation, corruption and scandals in government and all evil, I still see and hear more people cursing and blaspheme God and Virgin Mary than falling on knees, converting and asking God for help. Some of them after those mortal sins go to Mass and even receive a Eucharist, you can see them confess maxbe only for Easter and Christmass. But they receieve Holy Communion every Sunday. I have all these reasons to do penance, I will listen some audiobooks from early Churh fathers that are about Lent, 4 last things, etc. Father Isaac Mary de Releya is a great preacher, traditional franciscian with zeal for salvation of souls. I recomend his sermons for Lent.
Topic: Lenten Sacrifice (Read 8591 times)