First of all, I'll admit that from one point of view, you have bigger fish to fry (closer to home) than worrying about which Mass you should attend.
For practical matters, please listen to MaterDominici. She gives good practical advice.
That having been said...
As a man, and a philosopher, I still believe that doctrine, especially concerning the spritual realm, should be the foundation of everything.
Something has to be the center that everything else orbits around; something has to come first.
Now I don't doubt your piety -- I'm talking about doctrine here.If you don't start by taking a firm, well-founded, educated stand for what you believe in, how can you deal with what life throws at you?
I bring this up because you mentioned having "reservations" about the Resistance position, you also mentioned severe misgivings about the SSPX chapel you attend, then mention going to confession at the Novus Ordo. You even mention the Indult. (You didn't mention your brief flirtation with Sedevacantism, which I know about from speaking with you in person). I'll be frank: You're all over the place, man. When your life's foundation is a merry-go-round, it's no wonder your life seems overwhelming.
It sounds like the real crisis you're having is doctrinal.You sound confused about your position regarding the Crisis in the Church, like you're looking for a new position and/or a position you can live out and believe in.
The Novus Ordo has doubtful priests and sacraments. That is what the SSPX always used to teach. They used to conditionally ordain Novus Ordo priests converting to Tradition. (Not anymore, though). The SSPX has become more like the Indult in their doctrine, their attitude towards the Conciliar Church and Vatican II, and what they preach from the pulpit. The Resistance is equivalent to the old classic SSPX position. You really need to pick one and live your life accordingly. But we're talking about the Faith and eternity here, so it's a grave, important choice that requires much prayer and thought.
Obviously a melancholic like yourself will have a tendency to suffer "decision paralysis" -- deep thinkers appreciate all the nuances, all the problems, and become unable to make a decision. The way out is to exercise the virtue of prudence and then make your "best guess" decision. Learn "enough", study "enough" about your options based on what time you have available, and then make a decision. What if you're wrong? Who cares.
In this world you're going to be wrong sometimes. God understands. We're not God and we're not omniscient. Just do your best to gather as much data/truth as possible, and then make a decision. Afterwards, be humble enough to consider the possibility that you might be wrong, and never stop learning: God can send people your way to help enlighten you if you ever find yourself on the wrong path (by no fault of your own). And keep up that prayer life; that also helps you to make course-corrections as necessary.My point: bringing order to your doctrinal life, standing for a firm position, will not make all your problems go away. But it will give you a position of stability and strength from which to DEAL with all those problems.
Men are creatures of principle. Men operate on principles. When I say "men", I mean "real men", which according to Bishop Williamson are something of an endangered species in 2016. So many men today are damaged goods, or strictly speaking they are defective. Because a normal foundation of principles and reason gives men a stability that not only keeps themselves stable and sane, but provides a secure, anchored trellis for their wives and children to cling to. It's all part of God's design.
As an aside, I must point out that the Resistance is nothing more or less than the classic SSPX position of Archbishop Lefebvre.
Recognize the Pope, but resist him in his destruction and his modernism. Practically speaking, this consisted of: keeping the Faith, supporting good traditional priests, and building up the Church as much as possible, working towards the triumph of Christ the King even over the secular realm. And in the meantime, WAIT PATIENTLY for God's good time to convert Rome back to the Catholic Faith. While we wait, we don't worry about becoming schismatic after X years (The Traditional movement has no time limit!), we don't engage in politics or negotiations with unconverted Rome, and we certainly don't seek to "win" a practical agreement or accord with Rome, ignoring doctrinal issues.
The Resistance consists of no new doctrines, no new positions, nothing new at all. Just Archbishop Lefebvre's old SSPX before Bishop Fellay took over and transformed the SSPX into something different.
There is fact and then there is opinion.
For example, it is not a legitimate position to condemn the consecration of Bishop Faure (or Bishop Thomas Aquinas) while simultaneously defending Archbishop Lefebvre's consecration of 4 bishops in 1988. That is because those two events are fundamentally the same, in every meaningful way. The fact that one was in Econe, Switzerland and one was in Brazil makes no difference. Any differences between the two are accidental, not essential. A person can condemn both consecrations, or neither. Those are the only legitimate positions.
Likewise, it is not legitimate to defend Archbishop Lefebvre's SSPX while condemning the Resistance as some kind of "wildcat", "illegitimate", "disobedient", or "schismatic" group. Those were the same words used against Archbishop Lefebvre in the 70's, and I've heard the same kind of talk against the Resistance by many old parishioners I knew at St. Joseph's Chapel (SSPX chapel in San Antonio).
Basically, these people have forgotten where the SSPX came from. The SSPX was doing the same thing as the Resistance in the 1970's. They were small, they were less united, they were criticizing and disobeying Modernist Rome, they were operating under Supplied Jurisdiction due to the state of emergency, they set up "illicit" chapels all over the place, etc. As I've pointed out many times, there is no added legitimacy automatically gained for an organization by virtue of getting your 10,000th parishioner, your 1,000,000th dollar in your corporate bank account, your 200th priest, your 200th piece of real estate, or your 30th year in business. Those things might make you bigger, but they don't add any fundamental legitimacy or justification. So many SSPX parishioners don't (or won't) seem to realize this.
There are plenty of Trad Catholics who reject the SSPX position for various reasons. And there are plenty who point out that this or that position (or even all positions) are imperfect. And in a way, I can respect their beliefs. At least their belief makes sense; it holds water. But it would be foolish to say, "I reject Coke because it rots the teeth; I drink Pepsi instead." Um, newsflash...
That is precisely the argument of one long-time St. Joseph's parishioner, whose initials are M.J. She said that what the Resistance is doing is "disobedient". So instead she goes to her un-canonical, illegal SSPX chapel for Mass, which has no permission from the Pope or the Roman authorities. And she's been doing this for decades, long before Bishop Fellay started making major moves towards Rome in 2012.
How is that consistent? Isn't that position nonsensical and contradictory? If she were truly concerned about "disobedience", she would go back to the Novus Ordo, or at least the local Indult at the San Antonio church ironically named "St. Pius X" on Harry Wurzbach Ave., since that Latin Mass is approved by Rome.
P.S. Your local Resistance chapel is only 45-50 minutes away. I used to drive 42 minutes to St. Joseph's every Sunday. But even if that's too far for weekly Mass, what about once a month? Or even once every 2 months? I've been to Fr. Zendejas' Houston chapel 5 times over the past 18 months, and that is 3.25 hours away. Sometimes 4.5 hours when traffic is bad. And I have a large family, so I had to drive a 1999 Suburban with 210,000 miles on it. You haven't made the 50-minute trip since late 2014, I think. Maybe you could carpool with someone, at least once in a while?
Or how about just come ONCE to speak with Fr. Zendejas for advice. He is a wise, old-school, faithful priest who received an excellent SSPX seminary formation. He is like a Mexican Cristero brought to the 21st century. Your current priest at St. Joseph's has been a priest for 5 months. Fr. Zendejas was ordained a (traditional) priest in 1989. He used to be the PRIOR of Ridgefield, CT and then he was the PRIOR of the Houston priory. So of all the SSPX priests ever ordained, he is in the top category of them.
I know that city-dwellers consider any trip over 15 minutes to be a "journey", but come on!