Author Topic: Ah Vocations... Vocations.. Vocations (Read 5236 times)

Daegus · « **on:** June 19, 2011, 08:34:29 PM »

As I come of age, more and more do I think about my vocation.. Or what God is calling me to do... As of yet, I don't believe that I am spiritually developed enough to properly discern my vocation, but I have a general idea (or at least, I think I do) of what God is calling me to do.

The only issue is that by virtue of the fact that I was born a bastard child, I would normally (if not for VII) be barred from the priesthood and many religious orders. Or in other words, I have a canonical impediment, by the fault of my mother and father that would prevent me from becoming a priest. Originally I had never really wanted to become a priest and actually distressed over the idea. Now that I realize I can't do that (or even be a part of a religious order) is eating away at my conscience. Everytime I read the words "illegitimate" or "bastard", it makes me feel useless. It makes me feel like I'm damned. Furthermore, it makes me want to hate my mother and father.. It is after all, entirely their fault and not mine that I have this canonical impediment. (Oh and no, they would never marry each other, so that is out of the question)

But of course there are other things like marriage.. Which I dread. As much as I like to think about marriage in general, I can't stand the thought of having to deal with children on a regular basis. In fact, even the idea of having a wife, as I find most women to be quite boring, is beyond the stretch of my horizon. To be quite honest, I don't find myself to be having any respect for most people as I usually get the impression that they don't respect me.

I feel as though now I know what it feels like for a ɧoɱosɛҳųαƖ who isn't a child rapist that wants to become a priest. They have a canonical impediment, through no fault of their own, that if they otherwise did not have they may be allowed into the priesthood.

In a way.. I guess you can say that I'm hoping God isn't calling me to the married life. How many married saints do you know in comparison to those who are single or priests? How could I devote my life to God when I would have annoying children and an annoying wife to look after?

I really want to be a saint and be an example for the future faithful.. But it doesn't sound like something I would be able to do if married. Hopefully that is not God's vocation for me and he's calling me to be an erudite hermit (consecrated virginity) that lives off of coconut water or something.

What do you guys think?

Vladimir · « **Reply #1 on:** June 19, 2011, 08:57:35 PM »

Vocation is between Heaven, you, and a good spiritual director. Never discuss a possible personal religious or priestly vocation to anyone but one of the above. Especially not on a public (and internet at that) forum.

Living in whatever your true vocation is makes attaining the Heavenly kingdom easier, but it doesn't assure it. Not living in your vocation doesn't guarantee your damnation, but it is more difficult to attain salvation when living in a station of life other than the one that Heaven has willed for you.

There is no "vocations" crisis. The crisis is of vocations not being responded to. No one is going to save the Church by pressuring everyone to become religious or priests. Everyone just needs to do their own job, whatever Heaven wills it to be.

gladius_veritatis · « **Reply #2 on:** June 19, 2011, 09:01:25 PM »

Homes,

I have read four or five, ten at the most, of your posts...

I have been impressed...You are WAY, WAY beyond where I was at your age (or this morning)...You are FAR from "useless" and the impediment in your case may be EASILY overcome. WORRY NOT, my young friend.

For the present, cultivate an intense interior life -- that is the key for ALL of us. If you need advice on how to do that, or need to know about writers or books that may help, etc., PM me (I promise to NOT seduce you -- LOL! -- sorry, could not resist after stevie wonder's endless crap about my 'seduction' via PM).

FWIW, I am duly impressed by your intelligence and progress, Daegus. Maybe you will accomplish what we older, useless folks only dreamed of

Daegus · « **Reply #3 on:** June 19, 2011, 09:10:21 PM »

Quote from: Vladimir

Vocation is between Heaven, you, and a good spiritual director. Never discuss a possible personal religious or priestly vocation to anyone but one of the above. Especially not on a public (and internet at that) forum.

Living in whatever your true vocation is makes attaining the Heavenly kingdom easier, but it doesn't assure it. Not living in your vocation doesn't guarantee your damnation, but it is more difficult to attain salvation when living in a station of life other than the one that Heaven has willed for you.

There is no "vocations" crisis. The crisis is of vocations not being responded to. No one is going to save the Church by pressuring everyone to become religious or priests. Everyone just needs to do their own job, whatever Heaven wills it to be.

Don't get me wrong, I know that what my vocation is is more of a private matter, but that isn't exactly the point I was making in creating this topic. I was really just asking for opinions on my current situation from those who may (or may not) be more experienced than I am, rather than discussing possible vocations for me. I still have quite a long ways to go before I find out what it is God wants me to do.

If God has chosen for me a path that I will find myself hating to go down, I will do so (even if reluctantly) out of obedience to Him. I have spent most of my life ignoring Him and pushing Him off to the side, but not anymore.

gladius_veritatis · « **Reply #4 on:** June 19, 2011, 09:12:13 PM »

Quote from: Daegus

To be quite honest, I don't find myself to be having any respect for most people as I usually get the impression that they don't respect me.

FWIW, this must be dealt with. If you are to assist others in the incomprehensibly-dangerous-and-difficult process of making it home to heaven, you must...MUST...at the VERY LEAST...respect them.

Their respect, or lack thereof, for you is completely irrelevant.

Don't worry, as such natural defects are easily overcome by grace, but do you hear what I am saying?

You must love the normal, even the repulsive man -- even when it HURTS and is impossible to nature. If men of God do not do such, WHO WILL???

Pray on it all, my young friend. I shall pray for you, for whatever that is or is NOT worth :)

Pray...and trust in God...He knows and arranges all for your benefit...be at peace :)