Basically this is my poll to do a survey of what Resistance people think.
Long story short:
Fr Walliez banned me after I developed a relapse of a mental illness because I was becoming very strange and obsessed with harsh penances. People were afraid I was suicidal.
So he banned me for this, and also for my angry reaction to one woman who phoned me to threaten to lock me into a mental hospital and throw away the key. I just snapped because of it.
There was also the issue of abnormal concern over a nun who attended out chapel who also works as a masseur, which I exposed, and which was the reason for penance for her.
Then Fr Griego replaces Walliez, and he makes absolutely no effort to reach out to me.
Whenever I called their churches to beg for the sacrament of confession genuinely,
the priests would put the phone down until I run out of credit.
I was treated like a piece of scuм by them, which shocked me, because I had gone to a chapel every day and prayed from 7am - 7pm and was their only server.
I was shocked at how they all turned on me, but not surprised anymore.
Eventually, because I had no Mass I could attend, or no traditional confessions,
I suffered a nervous breakdown, attempted ѕυιcιdє, and stopped practicing my religion.
Then I started to investigate the Eastern Orthodox, until some good woman talked me back into being a Catholic again despite what happened.
The current situation is that I am allowed attend a chapel 5 hours travel away,
but I am not allowed near the nearest chapel.
Also, I will say that, and it should be obvious to all, that some people hated me with a passion,
and that there were many lies told about me and efforts to lock me up for things I did not do.
Fr Griego believes everything these people tell him, but Im afraid if anyone has lost touch with reality, it is Fr Griego whose sense of self importance is like an aura.
There is nothing wrong with my mental health now, thanks to measures which I dont want to discuss, but that is beside the point. I mean come on, the priests of the SSPX should be able to deal with someone having a nervous breakdown at their chapel, and the last thing they should do is treat them in such a way as would cause them to look back on it and consider that they treated me like something they stepped on. The ban from mass and sacraments means I have missed all holy days, missed Christmas, I will miss easter, and if I want to go to traditional confession I cant, because I have no time anymore with other things.
So what do people think of this?
I mean does the SSPX forgive and forget? Or do they hold bitter grudges for a life time?
Look, I need the Mass and the Sacraments.
I have had a hard enough time as it is. All I want is God and to be Catholic.
If anyone agrees or has sympathy with me, please vote in the last option which says that Griego was a bit too harsh on me, and that 8 month ban should raise some serious questions as to whether he even gives a damn about saving souls who happen to be poor / ill.
And yes I made a grovelling apology to Fr Griego in writing and in person before,
and confessed anything wrong I done. I offered to work with him on many issues,
but he basically acts as if I am the scuм of the earth and thinks he is better off without me.
I dont class myself as a supporter of either SSPX or Resistance.
All I wanted was the old fashioned Catholicism. Not interested in politics.
Thanks for reading.
PS: I wont make a habit of posting on this forum. Not my thing.
But I wonder how people take what happened.
I hope I do not receive any personal attacks. People should move on.