Basically this is my poll to do a survey of what Resistance people think.

Long story short:
Fr Walliez banned me after I developed a relapse of a mental illness because I was becoming very strange and obsessed with harsh penances. People were afraid I was suicidal.
So he banned me for this, and also for my angry reaction to one woman who phoned me to threaten to lock me into a mental hospital and throw away the key. I just snapped because of it.
There was also the issue of abnormal concern over a nun who attended out chapel who also works as a masseur, which I exposed, and which was the reason for penance for her.

Then Fr Griego replaces Walliez, and he makes absolutely no effort to reach out to me.
Whenever I called their churches to beg for the sacrament of confession genuinely,
the priests would put the phone down until I run out of credit.
I was treated like a piece of scuм by them, which shocked me, because I had gone to a chapel every day and prayed from 7am - 7pm and was their only server.
I was shocked at how they all turned on me, but not surprised anymore.

Eventually, because I had no Mass I could attend, or no traditional confessions,
I suffered a nervous breakdown, attempted ѕυιcιdє, and stopped practicing my religion.
Then I started to investigate the Eastern Orthodox, until some good woman talked me back into being a Catholic again despite what happened.

The current situation is that I am allowed attend a chapel 5 hours travel away,
but I am not allowed near the nearest chapel.
Also, I will say that, and it should be obvious to all, that some people hated me with a passion,
and that there were many lies told about me and efforts to lock me up for things I did not do.
Fr Griego believes everything these people tell him, but Im afraid if anyone has lost touch with reality, it is Fr Griego whose sense of self importance is like an aura.

There is nothing wrong with my mental health now, thanks to measures which I dont want to discuss, but that is beside the point. I mean come on, the priests of the SSPX should be able to deal with someone having a nervous breakdown at their chapel, and the last thing they should do is treat them in such a way as would cause them to look back on it and consider that they treated me like something they stepped on. The ban from mass and sacraments means I have missed all holy days, missed Christmas, I will miss easter, and if I want to go to traditional confession I cant, because I have no time anymore with other things.

So what do people think of this?
I mean does the SSPX forgive and forget? Or do they hold bitter grudges for a life time?
Look, I need the Mass and the Sacraments.
I have had a hard enough time as it is. All I want is God and to be Catholic.
If anyone agrees or has sympathy with me, please vote in the last option which says that Griego was a bit too harsh on me, and that 8 month ban should raise some serious questions as to whether he even gives a damn about saving souls who happen to be poor / ill.
And yes I made a grovelling apology to Fr Griego in writing and in person before,
and confessed anything wrong I done. I offered to work with him on many issues,
but he basically acts as if I am the scuм of the earth and thinks he is better off without me.

I dont class myself as a supporter of either SSPX or Resistance.
All I wanted was the old fashioned Catholicism. Not interested in politics.

Thanks for reading.
PS: I wont make a habit of posting on this forum. Not my thing.
But I wonder how people take what happened.
I hope I do not receive any personal attacks. People should move on.

One thing I want to say before anybody posts, is that whatever I done at the chapel ( which was not that big a deal anyway to most people ) I am sorry for.
But basically I only want the Latin Mass and the sacraments. Thats it.
People said to me before about the Catholics in Japan having no priests,
let me tell you that if you are deep into religion, and all of a sudden get told that they are all hypocrites ( or so you interpret it ) you lose it, plain and simple.
Thank God for the one devout and very good and beautiful woman, who put up with a lot of shit form me for months, who reached out to me to bring me back to the church.
She can only do so much though. Thanks to her I pray again, but I go to the novus ordo as a substitute ( which took a long time to accept as permitted for a conservative Catholic ).

If anyone wants to pray, ask God to help the woman who helped me.
She remains nameless. I blame no one, but this general way Fr Griego runs the SSPX,
as with Fr Walliez before him, needs to be exposed.
They run the chapels like a private club for the minority of benefactors.
I have no money so I depend on mercy.

Thats all.

We remember you, soulguard and whatever was your previous name. I remember specially your foul language and your detestation for the Holy infant of Prague and for the Resistance. I hope you improve. I will gladly pray for you. But ask yourself why is it that you get banned from everywhere.

You got the reason whoever you are. The reason was mentioned in the first post mentioning mental illness. I guess lots of people do not tolerate it, but now that the issue is resolved,
maybe the thing to do now is look at how you people responded to it.
The lay woman throwing me out of church by herself after Fr De Broque told me I had permission to attend mass, and then her slamming the door and locking it, while I offered no resistance whatsoever, is not what I think of when I think of Catholicism.

Her threats against me. Her daily bullying tactics saying I was making too much noise walking into church and to walk on my tippey toes? Her leaving of threatening notes in the chapel bookshelf anonymously? Her calling the police on me for things that either did not happen or that she done herself? Her breaking of her own window and then implying to everyone that I done it, even when I can be proven to have been elsewhere whenever it happened? People impersonating me on the internet?

Other people should be confronted.
Being banned from this forum is totally irrelevant.
I dont care about that, I care about having no confessions or mass.

It sounds complicated. I suggest that you visit a sede priest near you, and just see what he has to say. Send what you wrote here to him first, and then make an appointment. You don't have to sign up for anything when you visit him.

I do not know of any sede priests in this country.
Maybe you could suggest a location in private message just in case?

Yes it is complicated, and very personal and hurtful to talk about for all who know me.

How about considering spending some time at a Monastery?

If your wants are simple and consist of mass, sacraments and time with God that might be the ticket.  

You can immerse yourself in the rhythm of that life, balance your health, work, study and prayer.  

Lots of controlled silence, less chit chat, focusing on the work at hand, attaining sanctity for your soul and praying in the monastery for the Church and people that won't get too involved with you personally.  

I dont have a religious vocation owing to disability, but as a sort of holiday, maybe it is a good idea. Except I cant with college taking up time.

PS: I just checked the private message function. I cannot read them unless I am an established member unfortunately. But I dont plan on staying on this forum too long anyway.

It's possible that this priest believes your temporary banishment is for your own good. If he's wrong about that, wouldn't it be on him, not you? Besides, if you really are mentally ill, wouldn't that relieve you of your Holy Obligations to hear Mass? Surely your banishment would, no?

My point is that (unless I'm missing something) you needn't worry about being in mortal sin. Other people's sins are their business. It makes no sense to me to post on a forum you've been banished from. If you only want sympathy, and I don't blame you if that's the case, this seems like a disastrous way to go about it.  

Fr. Griego is responsible for your salvation, you are his lamb and he is your shepherd assigned by God. He can't abandon you until he is certain that you are taken care of by another shepherd. If you have a history of mental problems it is even more reason to watch over you more carefully than others. As you describe it, it sounds mercenarial on the part of the priest, a 9-5 job priest that wants no "unpleasantness" in life.

Be patient and wait your 8 months. Don't expect much from man (the chapel crowd), remember, the crowd laid flowers before Christ when he was received as the Messiah, and the crowd crucified him just a few days later, only  like 5 people stood by him (be content with even one friend in your chapel).

As for Fr. Griego, pray for him that he not be confounded:

St. John Chrysostom, Patriarch of Constantinople, Doctor of the Church:

I do not speak rashly, but as I feel and think., I do not think that many priests are saved but that those that perish are far more numerous. The reason is that the office requires a great soul. For there are many things to make a priest swerve from rectitude, and he requires great vigilance on every side. Do you not perceive how many qualities a bishop must have that he may be apt to teach; patient towards the wicked, firm and faithful in teaching the Word? How many difficulties herein.

Moreover the loss of others is imputed to him. I need say no more. If but one dies without baptism, does it not entirely endanger his salvation? For the loss of one soul is so great an evil as no man can understand. If the salvation of one soul is of such importance that, for its sake, the Son of God became man and suffered so much, think of the penalty the loss of one soul will entail. (Third Homily, Acts of the Apostles)