He also says that he just always followed, observed, trying to fit in, figure it out, never taught to be strong or self confident, just wanted to be a Saint. Somehow he thought ordination was like the “silver bullet” that would give him the state of Grace to deal with these temptations....it never did. He decided this God thing was all hooey and no supernatural cure was coming anytime soon and if you can’t beat ‘em join ‘em. (Paraphrasing)
So my question is, how can someone spend seven years (and more) submerged in a Catholic seminary and still have such an immature, adolescent understanding of grace?
What went so horribly wrong??