Thanks, Matthew.
I just feel that I have a duty to do my best and try my hardest to inform my conscience properly regarding possible responses to this crisis. So I try to think and pray deeply about things; I run them over in my mind and turn them every which way. To me it's very important not to act emotionally to things ... something, as you know, Bishop Williamson always emphasized. As such, I do not want to follow any person in particular, but only the truth and the faith. That comes across as cocky and arrogant, and perhaps it is, but with the vacuum of authority in the Church, I find that it's what I'm stuck with. People say, "Well, listen to your priests." Which priests? +Williamson or +Fellay? SV or R&R or Novus Ordo? And I feel that I do no one any service if I just acquiesce in something simply out of deference for someone with greater rank and/or even virtue. I want to be beaten down with logic and reason and syllogisms.
That's why I love CI so much. We can mix it up here with people who have strongly different opinions. I learn a TON, with so many different arguments and perspectives and opinions, that it's an invaluable aid in trying to navigate this crisis.