Here is a list of books I have purchased and read over the last year that are related to this topic: Most of them are available on Archive.org for free.
The History of Heresies and Their Refutation Paperback - St. Alphonsus
https://www.amazon.com/dp/0976911809?psc=1&ref=ppx_yo2ov_dt_b_product_detailsThe Primacy of the Apostolic See Vindicated - 1848
https://www.amazon.com/dp/1313537446?psc=1&ref=ppx_yo2ov_dt_b_product_detailsThe Papacy and the First Councils of the Church - 1910
https://www.amazon.com/dp/1331097614?psc=1&ref=ppx_yo2ov_dt_b_product_detailsThe Primitive Church and the See of Peter - 1894
https://www.amazon.com/dp/1530097878?psc=1&ref=ppx_yo2ov_dt_b_product_detailsThe Pope: The Vicar of Christ, the Head of the Church - 1885
https://www.amazon.com/gp/product/0484049992/ref=ppx_yo_dt_b_asin_title_o05_s00?ie=UTF8&psc=1The Faith of Catholics Volume 2 - 1910
https://www.amazon.com/gp/product/1341179400/ref=ppx_yo_dt_b_asin_title_o06_s00?ie=UTF8&psc=1The Tradition Of The Syriac Church Of Antioch: Concerning The Primacy And The Prerogatives Of St. Peter And Of His Successors The Roman Pontiffs - 1871
https://www.amazon.com/gp/product/1499281382/ref=ppx_yo_dt_b_asin_title_o05_s00?ie=UTF8&psc=1Vindicating the Filioque: The Church Fathers at the Council of Florence - 2023
https://www.amazon.com/gp/product/1645853179/ref=ox_sc_saved_title_10?smid=ATVPDKIKX0DER&psc=1On the Apostolical and Infallible Authority of the Pope: When Teaching the Faithful and His Relation to a General Council - 1869
https://www.amazon.com/gp/product/149734994X/ref=ox_sc_saved_title_7?smid=ATVPDKIKX0DER&psc=1What you will find on the Orthodox side is a complete inability to explain how for the first thousand years, they submitted to Rome, obeyed Rome, and acknowledged Rome's supremacy over the whole Christian world. This is so clearly and profoundly docuмented, it takes a truly dishonest man to deny it. But dishonesty is the essence of the Orthodox apologist.
The reason I've had to do so much reading on this is because my brother did exactly what you are considering, he abandoned the wave-tossed Barque of Peter in favor of the loose confederation of waring tribes that is Orthodoxy. He lost his faith eight or nine years ago, and hid it very well. Two years ago, he surprised all of us by becoming a catechumen at the local Antiochian Orthodox Church.
He ceased to believe the words and promises of Christ, and in the midst of the storm, he chose to jump ship rather than patiently endure the passion of the Mystical Body of Christ. The temptation to gaze upon the crucified Church, held up to the whole world as an object of ridicule, and to doubt that this truly is the Church Christ founded is a tremendous trap. My brother can't fathom how this could happen to the True Church, in the same way that so many of the apostles and Jєωs couldn't fathom how God Himself could be crucified. Is the servant above his Master? Do we deserve anything less?
His church was not founded on the Rock of Peter. His church does not have the keys. His church does not have the promise of Christ, that the gates of hell will never prevail against it.
You seek safety and security, peace and tranquility. You will not find it in Orthodoxy. Not only because it is a false religion, but because they have nothing but stagnation and disunity to offer. They are the tattered remnants of a long-dead empire, a decaying corpse that should have been buried centuries ago.
And you will have to be prepared to deny the Immaculate Conception of Our Lady. You will have to reject the true nature of original sin, taking on a Pelagian view of it instead. You must be prepared to deny the distinction between mortal and venial sin, the concepts of purgatory, indulgences, and reparation. Hell to the orthodox mind is undefined. Prepare yourself to embrace Palamism, and an unending string of other errors. And because of a lack of scholasticism and truth, you must be prepared to accept "it's a mystery" as an answer to any question they don't have an answer for, which are considerable.
No, you will not find what you're looking for there.