ugh...this is so...disappointing... first I was slammed by things that contradicts with what I have learnt and thought I knew...then to find out the Church is so divided and I cannot trust anything... and now this part about my past marriage...

Yes, things are very serious unfortunately. The times are such that many of us had to break off relationships and be persecuted for the faith.

God has mercifully brought you to where you are now, so close to the Truth, only a few more steps to take, although maybe the hardest of all.

Trust in God's Providence, pray the rosary for discernment and all will be well!

No, but thank you for asking.  I know that is a common reason for people leaving the Church.  Also, thank you to everyone else.  I picked up a copy of the Fortescue book as well as one by Erick Ybarra (a novus ordite but he is a scholar on the Greek Schism) called "The Papacy."  I already pray the 15 decades but of course will continue to do so.  Prayer and study. 

Great! As I said, I'm positive the spiritual aspect is what counts here so I'd focus more on being in the right frame of mind, maybe read some lives of the saints as well.

No, but thank you for asking.  I know that is a common reason for people leaving the Church.  Also, thank you to everyone else.  I picked up a copy of the Fortescue book as well as one by Erick Ybarra (a novus ordite but he is a scholar on the Greek Schism) called "The Papacy."  I already pray the 15 decades but of course will continue to do so.  Prayer and study. 

That's great to hear. I have it on good authority that Fr. Fortescue's book is an excellent source for learning about the Eastern Schism. May it strengthen your faith. 

Thank you, Sneedevacantist for recommending it! 

I would like to ask anyone who sees this thread to pray a memorare for her detransition and conversion if you are ok with that.

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Has anyone successfully prayed for someone's conversion? What was the method of prayer used?

Would it be effective to ask a novus ordo Carthusian monastery to pray for her? 
They have only one meal per day. 

Got married (civil marriage) because of a pregnancy, marriage did not last as the woman I married was an adulterer which tore our marriage apart and I left them for several years (I am no saint either). My heart broke, despair and suicidal thoughts were in my mind several times as I always find myself alot on the rooftops somewhere looking down, but never could bring myself to end it but at least it is silent and dark being alone on the rooftop. I have stopped loving her but its me who is afraid of change for some unknown reason. Then again one night, I begged God again, once more in my desperation to be released from this suffering, and anxiety... and take me, I remember I told Him I do not wish to go to Hell but to end all of my existence, mind, body and soul so I do not even exist anywhere. Silly I know but... I was desperate.

So finally a divorce took place, and surprisingly, things did not turn out as bad as I imagined it to be. I only need to pay for child support and I would have to buy over my ex-spouse's share of our house. There were still a lot of paperwork to be done after that for the house, so let's leave that aside for now. It wasn't long before I met another woman...this time, a Catholic woman who is very nurturing and loving. We fell in love. At that time, I suddenly recalled that I did ask God for a Catholic partner when I was probably still in my teenager years. And I can kinda guessed why He won't give me a Catholic partner then because I could never treasure whoever He gave me at that age. But He did answer my prayer after all, but at His own time.

Frankly, the timing He brought her to my life could never be better. She has nurtured me out of my trauma and pain, and even knows how to soothe my anger (I have anger issues due to constantly using anger to balm my hurts and pains so as not to feel it, which is a dangerous thing to do to oneself). She has even loaned me $15K to help pay off my ex-spouse's share of the house, and we rented the rooms out and all rent proceeds are used to pay for my debt to her. I knew at that time she was special because rarely would anyone be willing to fork out so much money to help someone they are not married to.

Ever since then, I trust her so much that I give her control and freedom over every dollar I own. I have not given anyone such power and control in my life, until now. And I can only give praise and thanks to God who answers my prayers in times of great desperation and humility, and to bring someone like her into my life, after everything that I have ever done to disobey Him.

I started my journey since July 2023 and baptism took place April 15th 2024.

Hate to be the one to break it to you, but your civil marriage was valid since you were both non-Catholics. Thus to live with this other woman, however nice she is, would be adultery.

I did a little research and found some good information around. I think it is actually allowed as a special permission based on the Roman Archdiocese of Singapore, but on the tongue is still considered the norm.

It does make sense though, as it would be extremely uncharitable and unloving towards those who have weaker immune systems or are more vulnerable in health, if one insists on sticking rigidly to a form or tradition due to our own pride and disobedience, especially when the current global situation deems it still unsafe. Pssst I used to be like that and still in danger of being that.

One can only pray that this Covid pandemic clear up quickly , so the Church can finally take away Communion in the hand and enforce it on the tongue? Not sure how it all works.

I found other info on the topic of receiving communion with unconsecrate hands, and frankly I take comfort in this link, knowing Catholics have been receiving on the hands for the first 800 years of Christianity, before switching to the tongue:

It would be uncharitable to dismiss out of hand what I charitably intimated is very important. The sources you provided are not from the Catholic Church, but the modernist sect pretending to be the Catholic Church. It's leaders enable worship of pagan idols, participate in non-Catholic worship with Jєωs, muslims, animists, and other false religions, profess that one does not have to be Catholic to be saved and many other heretical things.

Since you didn't watch the videos I sent you, I'll provide some examples of antipope Francis committing apostasy here:

Celebrating the 500th anniversary of the Protestant Reformation with a statue of Luther and the Vatican printed stamps with Luther replacing St. John beneath the Cross.





Here's the antipope blessing a pagan idol representing a goddess of fertility Pachamama:



Here's antipope John Paul II kissing the blasphemous Quran:




Here's the same antichrist being "blessed" by an animist:


Here's him promoting false religions at Assisi in 1986:



Here's the current papal impostor genially receiving a blasphemous crucifix


As I already said, the Divine Mercy devotion is condemned by the Church, communion in the hand is condemned by the Church and you can find crucial information about the Catholic faith on the links I provided. The fact that people who actively participate in the worship of false religions and blaspheme God daily say that you can commit sacrilege doesn't excuse you from touching the Body of Christ.

You can find video evidence of the apostasy after the so-called 2nd Vatican Council here: https://youtu.be/IX97Qg4DIJU?feature=shared


I sincerely hope you will prayerfully consider the above.