ANY struggle you have, you can be certain many other Catholics have the same struggles even if they have been in the faith for many years.
Remember these basic ordinary daily struggles are your cross. All you have to do is carry it. Even Jesus needed help carrying his cross, so heavy was the burden of our sins. It wouldn't be quite so difficult if Catholics would help each other carry their cross, but we are too spread out and careless to do that, or we won't accept help from others. "Bear one another's burdens, everyone shall carry his own burden." "No greater love does a man have than to lay down his life for his friends." That doesn't mean we have to take a bullet for them, but give up what you want to do with your life, even if it's just a part of the day or week you would rather be doing something else for yourself, to help someone else carry their burden. You don't make a campfire with 1 piece of wood, it takes a few to share the heat between them so they burn all the hotter in this cold world.
I appreciate this. I kept assuming that there is something wrong with me or that I did not put myself in a proper state of mind before baptism and expected something splendous to happen. You just reminded me when we as catechumens were taught during RCIA that even after baptism, we were not excused from spiritual struggles and hardships, and it only intensifies if we intend to really carry the cross. Ugh...I see the immaturity in my expectations now.
Can I ask, what kind of community are you in, in order to stay close and tightly-knitted within the Catholic circle? Or what advice can you provide me if I am looking for one? I ask this because apart from the Sunday Mass, there isn't really much contact (at least from my observations based on my own experiences).