graceseeker, I think you are genuinely looking for Catholic fellowship here at CI, and there's nothing wrong with that; per se...
But... did you lurk for awhile before joining to see if we were a good fit before diving in head-first? This forum is geared mainly towards SSPX/ resistance trads. Nobody begrudges you the opportunity to hang-out an learn, since it seems like you haven't been exposed to much traditional Catholicism. However, constantly berating the members here because we disagree with things you spout-off with (seemingly) 'from the top of your head' is not the way to go. Admittedly, I have posted some really jaw-droppingly dumb stuff over the years that I wish I could take back; but lady, in your short time here you will soon surpass the number of posts I've made in 7 years at CI... slow down and think a bit before you click "Post".
Sorry to be the "mean one" but you often seem bitterly confused about the responses you receive from many of us.