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The buzz is a lie. The dopamine is a lie. The cortisol makes me shiver and my face puff up like a zombie. My eyes look gray, my skin never leaves razor bumps until I've been smoking. The immune system weakness. I have been smoking cigarettes, a pipe, cigars, black n milds, friends' vapes and chewed gum. The gum is the one with the least side effects, and feels the best. Cigarettes and swishers from a gas station are the worst. Regardless I'm done with all of it. I feel uninspired. I feel like a megalomaniac billionaire. I am put in a state of drive momentarily at the cost of my spirit. 

How many of you have fallen into the trap of smoking? How many are in it and denying it? How many of you do other things like eat cake and play video games? Or waste your time with money? It's not good for you. In a world where there's nothing left to do, false dopamine isn't the answer. I've got weights and they work way better. Tending to my cat and potatoes work too.

I will smoke a pipe once or twice a month. No inhaling, no dopamine. It's more like a hobby.

If I begin to do something often I have to do it every day. If I began drinking wine it'd be the same. It is a trait I've been blessed and cursed with, by God's grace I choose which one.

I am the same for certain things. Kind of an obsessive personality.

It's a great thing that you could abandon smoking altogether.