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I haven't read all of the posts, but I noticed you wrote something similar back on the first page in March 2023. 

When speaking with people, I think the idea is that we are doing it to show interest in THEM.  It shouldn't matter if what they say is useless or beneficial to US.  I have found that when I do this, I forget what might be bothering me/stop thinking about myself.

This is where my brain is wired differently. If I don't know the person, then I have no real interest in them. At this point, they're just another person. When I talk to someone, it's the subject of the conversation that is the most important thing. What makes one person I don't know someone I'd want to talk to and get to know more than another person? If I go to a group setting and there are a bunch of people there I don't know. I can have short conversations with many people but that won't give me a chance to get to know them well enough to determine if they're someone I'm going to want to get together or engage with as a friend later on. If talk to 10 random people, that will likely not be a pleasant experience and due to the fact that in those settings, conversations aren't allowed to go really deep and foster getting to really know if you share common interests, nothing will develop from it so for me, it seems pointless. Yes, I know that's not right, but I can't help it. It's how my brain works.

Again, I'm not trying to argue to be argumentative. I'm merely trying to show how my brain and thought process works so people will have a better idea on how I work so they can understand me better.

This is where my brain is wired differently. If I don't know the person, then I have no real interest in them. At this point, they're just another person. When I talk to someone, it's the subject of the conversation that is the most important thing. What makes one person I don't know someone I'd want to talk to and get to know more than another person? If I go to a group setting and there are a bunch of people there I don't know. I can have short conversations with many people but that won't give me a chance to get to know them well enough to determine if they're someone I'm going to want to get together or engage with as a friend later on. If talk to 10 random people, that will likely not be a pleasant experience and due to the fact that in those settings, conversations aren't allowed to go really deep and foster getting to really know if you share common interests, nothing will develop from it so for me, it seems pointless. Yes, I know that's not right, but I can't help it. It's how my brain works.

Again, I'm not trying to argue to be argumentative. I'm merely trying to show how my brain and thought process works so people will have a better idea on how I work so they can understand me better.

Being a Catholic means acting not as we want and feel but picking up our cross and following the will of God.

There is a saying of the saints that perfection consists in this:  "To forget oneself" and "To do the will of another rather than one's own".  I highly recommend the book "The Gift of Oneself" by Father Scruvyer.

"Right is right since God is God
And right the day must win
To doubt would be disloyalty
To falter would be sin."
Fr. W. Faber

Also remember that God is a selfish God.  If we have a propensity to need people to fill us then God will make people not available.  I really think reading "The Three Ages of the Interior Life" by Fr. Réginald Garrigou-Lagrange might help.  If you are growing in love of God, then you will feel more alone.  Many Saints went through a dark period where they did not have any consolation from God.  We just have to keep persevering.  May God bless you and Keep you.

And let me assure you that many people feel as you do. We long for community of like minded Catholics, but this crisis in the Church gives us a lot more sufferings to offer up for the greater glory of God, one of these is feeling lonely.