Quite often, one who is brought up with an anti-Catholic and modernistic mindset will find true Catholic principles to be overly-harsh and judgmental. Once one realizes they have been indoctrinated into this anti-Catholic mindset, and that this was done purposefully in order to prevent further conversion to the True faith, they find that what once felt uncomfortable, or judgmental and hateful, to them was actually educated persons acting like Catholics, using their minds to judge what information they've been given, as we all do, and should; lest we become the robots some want of us, unable to perceive good and evil around us.
I read through all your posts, which didn't take long given that you only had 11 at the time, and found nothing that you should have taken offense to. So, I'm sorry you've found us to be sad and hateful here, and I hope you are able to take more time to find out exactly how this forum thinks, as its not that. I hope that your spiritual life will develop further, and that God and our Lady may keep you.