CC23, GET AWAY FROM THESE WEBSITES YOU KEEP VISITING!
Why don't you get as moved by "The Story of a Soul" or "The Little Flowers of St. Francis" or some other approved, pious and holy writings?
You are constantly throwing your faith to the winds of human opinion, and you are coming dangerously close to being the kind of person the Apostle St. James talked about... unstable in your ways and unfit for good works, because your conscience isn't settled on the things of God.
You're running to MHFM or who knows what other sites and getting caught up in all their scandal-mongering.
DO you have a traditionally-ordained, valid priest? HE is the person you should be talking to and making confession to INSTEAD of wasting your time with the nameless, faceless 'experts' out there, no matter whether they are claiming to be priests or not.
You also must PLEASE stop talking about Pope Pius XII in that way. His OPINION about NFP was just that, an OPINION, and one applicable only in certain situations. The Holy Father did not make a dogmatic pronouncement about NFP, and neither was it or is it considered a part of the teaching of the Ordinary Magisterium. His Holiness was simply addressing an issue which was pressing at that time in history. To say that you doubt the validity of his reign as Pope over a relatively short collection of opinions about NFP is to be grasping at very thin straws indeed.
It seems to me that you have been more interested in bulking up your arguments for being a sedevacantist rather than for being a traditional Roman Catholic.
That, of course, is the danger (and the constant problem) in this age of the Church as She is being persecuted. There are more people now claiming to be 'traditional Catholics' because they have XYZ opinions (sede, NWO, Jєωs or whatever) rather than because they can be found actually PRACTICING the FAITH.
Ask yourself, whoever is reading this, a simple question:
Are you praying the Office and the Rosary, making confession, attending Mass and all the other things you are doing because "THEY'RE THE RIGHT THINGS TO DO, AND I CAN PROVE IT! NOT LIKE THOSE HERETICS IN THE VATICAN RIGHT NOW!!!"...
...or are you doing those things because Christ Jesus Our Lord has called you to Himself and you are taking up your cross daily and following Him?
Are you RIGHT about your Faith, and therefore right with God, or are you right with God through your faith, and therefore right about the other issues?
One attitude, the first one, is Protestant. They believe they are right with God because they 'believe'. It's natural effort, not supernatural faith. It's mental assent and not spiritual metamorphosis.
The second attitude is the one that says that no matter what, you will persevere in the Faith once delivered to the saints, that you will obey Holy Church in all things and thus be saved from damnation through the graces God gives in His Church. THEN, because you are steadfast in the Faith that has not changed, you are able to face the changes, challenges and attacks that come against Christ's Church, and you are not some anonymous blogger or some vicious armchair wanna-be prelate... you're a child of God, in His Church and part of Our Lady's army which will see Her Immaculate Heart win the day, to the glory of Her Son.
Which are you, curiouscatholic? I will pray that you will abandon the noisy gongs and clanging cymbals of the internet and seek the supernatural charity of heart and soul which only God gives, and only through His Church.
It is LIVING the Faith, not KNOWING ABOUT the facts and figures, that will sustain you, me and all of us in this trying time and every one to come.
Holy Apostles, pray for us.
Immaculate Heart of Mary, triumph soon.
Sacred Heart of Jesus, have mercy on us.