Sorry -- nothing emotional or personal, but you publicly said that there are only a few dozen Catholics in the world, located in New Mexico and Colorado.
You also used words like "I can't accept your blessing."
You also alluded to what brought you to your current sorry state: learning from the Dimond brothers. I recommend you meditate on Our Lord's words about "The blind leading the blind".
You should also meditate on the Catholic doctrine that God wills all men to be saved. How could He will all men to be saved, when it is physically impossible for 99.99% of them to find a priest or reach a Catholic church in their lifetime? Not everyone lives in New Mexico as you do.
Your beliefs necessarily lead to the heresy that some men are born to go to Hell, and that not everyone in Hell is there by his own fault. According to you and others, some poor slobs are only in Hell because they weren't given the grace of being born in New Mexico, within driving distance of the only Catholic chapel in the world.
Those are red flags for me -- both of those things go against the rules of membership here on CathInfo.