Greetings,

Some quick background: I was raised Catholic, I guess you could say modern although looking back there were definitely traditional elements that I didn't recognize at the time.

As I grew older I drifted away from the Church. You could say I lost the faith, although I remained very critical of atheism. I was sort of a milk-toast Catholic-in-name-only.

After several years of searching for truth, I came to several startling realizations. I hope these don't offend anyone, but they are the simple truth: The world is generally run by international usurers who are almost entirely Jєωιѕн. The Federal Reserve of the US (and every other country) is a giant extortion racket designed to drain the middle class (and everyone else for that matter) of wealth and funnel it to these diabolical...well, Jєωs. WWI and WWII were both,  and it pains me to say this, unjustly joined by the United States. WWI ended up as a zionist plot to create the state of Israel, and in WWII Germany was by far the more ethical country and the one that was unjustly abused. Germany abolished its own Jєωιѕн central bank extortion racket, which is one of the true causes of the war (a Hitlerian desire to take over the world is an absurd fairy tale). The h0Ɩ0cαųst (via gassings, or any policy of genocide) never happened, it is in fact a fable designed to affect several severe changes on the world: the legitimization of Judaism, the extortion racket of reparations for Israel, the guilt of all European nations, the silencing of future criticism of Jєωry, the legitimization of heinous allied war crimes, the murder of German leaders who could set the record straight, the end of all nationalism for all time (to bring about a world government), and on and on. Above all, of course, it set up Jєωs as the supreme sacrifice of all time, attempting to eclipse even Jesus Christ. Of course, along the way I picked up a great deal more hidden knowledge, but suffice it to say: I woke up.

After waking up, I took another look at the Catholic Church. Did I mention that my brother is a priest? Well, he is, but I can't seem to shake him awake, despite my best efforts to get him to look closely at the h0Ɩ0cαųst, WWII, the Federal Reserve, and so forth. I've tried with other young priests and find it astonishingly difficult. In any case, I looked again at the Church and realized with horror that the Church Militant does not appear in any sincere way to be opposing the above cօռspιʀαcιҽs, all of which are demonic as sure as I'm sitting here. However, in reading earlier Church figures, it was plain to me that the Jєωιѕн menace was long understood for what it was, as were all modernist sects. For that matter, usury was properly condemned as well. The topic of usury is what began leading me back to the Church years ago when I first woke up the the Federal Reserve racket. Usury brought me to Distributism, and so goes the bouncing ball...

Eventually the bouncing ball led me to research Fatima, which lead me to Vatican II and SSPX.

When I read some of the Vatican II docuмents, the truth hit me like a ton of bricks. I never would have believed such overt Judaic Masonry could have penetrated such a council. The wording is an unmitigated disaster for the faithful. I'm not trying to be sensational, but its the truth.

Now, let me just say that I've recently attended my first confession in about 15 years (I gather this doesn't occur often, as the shock and excitement in the priest's voice was impossible for him to hide). That was no easy feat, and if you had known me only a couple of years ago you would never have thought it possible. That is the profound impact that Traditional Catholicism has had on me in only a matter of weeks, yes, weeks. I've also begun praying and meditating more, researching almost obsessively, and genuinely experience what I believe to be a bit of the Holy Spirit. I say this not out of pride but only because I wish to be fully transparent here.

Of course I had the advantage of already being "awake" in the secular sense through incessant research and a drive for truth, and of having been raised a Catholic. I guess you could say it was only a matter of time before something like this happened. Thank God it was before I met my mortal end.

However, upon researching SSPX and Traditional Catholicism, I can't seem to understand what the coherent message is. Some reject the Popes. Some reject the sacraments. Some reject Novus Ordo. Some reject everything back to the 1100's (yet call themselves Catholic). Some think Bishop Williamson is a great cleric, others a terrible heretic. I see "isms" that I don't understand placed after people's names and have no clue what the dispute even means.

What I do know is that Vatican II was a mistake fueled, at least in part, over misplaced guilt regarding the h0Ɩ0cαųst and the Church's earlier position on Jєωs. If that makes me a heretic then I'm not sure where I belong.

What I would like to know is where should someone in my position look to for clarity? I recently downloaded "An Open Letter to Confused Catholics" by Archbishop Lefebvre, and I intend to read it. What are this community's recommendations for me?

Thank you for any and all assistance. If I offended anyone here, that was not my intention.

I'd read that book you downloaded.

And keep a sane head about it all. The only thing that matters is keeping the Faith, remembering that there is a Crisis in the Church, and making it to heaven along with as many others as possible. The truth is what we need, but some "truths" (the status of the pope, the exact nature of the Crisis in the Church, etc.) are not attainable by human effort. Be willing to leave some things a mystery, and respectfully leave God some room to operate. Failure to do this is the common thread among most "messed up" Traditional Catholic personalities.

You know the joke about paranoia: "Are you still paranoid if there are actually people out to get you?"  Likewise, Agnosticism is false when applied to religion in general, or knowledge of the True God. But can we know by our unaided reason the exact nature of what God allowed at Vatican II, or how God plans to end the crisis? The likely answer is "no". So this sort of "agnosticism", or a rejection of being a know-it-all about the Crisis is not false at all. Respectfully admitting to "not have all the answers" with regards to the Church Crisis is HONESTY, HUMILITY and WISDOM, not agnosticism.

IN GENERAL the human mind is able to grasp and attain objective truths. But there are certain objective truths which are not going to be discovered by any human effort or investigation. Some things are mysteries of God. The Crisis in the Church is one of these.

Man, after original sin, is curious and wants to know and understand everything. That is actually the temptation the devil used on Eve to get her to eat the apple "You will be as gods, knowing good and evil." So it's a sacrifice to mortify our curiosity (just tell any 10 year old that you have a secret you're not going to tell and see how he reacts!). Nevertheless, we must.

Don't get distracted by the various distractions (including many team jerseys and political parties -- the "isms" you mention)