Sorry I've had a lot on my mind regarding school.
However, I came up with this really weird theory that might help resolve what I said about our essence earlier, about how it seems that we must follow a pantheistic argument or believe that we can exist independently of God.
Well, in an earlier essay i wrote for a class, I talked about how God must necessarily exist because of the law of conservation of mass. In other words, matter cannot be created or destroyed. this goes for energy as well. Basically, if one were to have a chemical reaction in an isolated beaker, the amount of mass and the amount of energy would remain the same. The reactant would equal the product, mass-wise
However, the only problem with this law is that according to this law, nothing could exist. How could the "mass" come about if nothing can create it or destroy it?
My solution is an infinite. I show this with a mathematical concept. It is safe to assume that "mass" is finite, correct?
Well, it's actually quite simple. If you multiply four by 1/4, you get one. If you multiply one thousand by 1/1000, you also, get one. However, multiply nothing, which is equivalent to 1/infinity, by infinity, and you get a finite number. Interesting, no?
This basically says that in order to create anything with an infinitely low amount of materials (or nothing), one must be infinite. So only God can break the Law of conservation of mass.
My point in telling you all this? My theory is that God didn't just create all of creation simply once, he is creating creation every single instant. Think about it. God is infinite, so that means he must be everywhere, correct? If God were to create a cube, wouldn't it make sense to believe that the cube would be completely and entirely consumed and destroyed by the infinite presence of God? How could a finite thing have any room to exist inside an infinite presence?
So, because I am still here typing this, and you are still here replying to my messages, I must assume that somehow we aren't entirely consumed by an infinite presence. So, my idea, is that in some weird way, we are being created, and then being created again before we can be destroyed. So, God must be infinitely aware of even the smallest particle at all times in order to do this, otherwise he would at one instant create a chair, and at another instant....a tree or something. So God MUST be omnipotent AND all knowing in order for him to constantly keep creating us at such an infinitely alarming rate.
So how does this help with the pantheistic/independent of God view, both heretical? Well, for one, we really are distinct from God, in that we are a finite thing that was outputted from an infinite source. Two, our existence is so fragile that we are quickly consumed by God's infinite being, that is, we are instantly consumed. However, we are created again before we can be destroyed.
So, our real essence, I think, is not entirely existence, as more that we are dependent. Our essence is our dependence on a being whose existence is so tied with ours as to be impossible to break without us being completely and entirely consumed.
This also helps support the idea that God never changes, that he wasn't a creator just once, but that he is always a creator, always building up and modifying his creation as is fit to his never-changing will.
This is a really cool way to look at God in that you see that he is really an artist, a mathematician, and an engineer. He is infinitely serious about his creation in that he keeps things consistent in a mind-bogging way and never goes against the rules he set up (excluding miracles), and yet he is infinitely playful, in that we are his toys, and he plays with us in a very loving manner. It also shows his deep respect for us, in that he is always taking the time to create us anew, and yet keep us the same (by this I mean over a very short period of time) and that he loves us in the present moment, almost as if he is savoring our existence. Pretty sweet, huh?