Soulguard, why is it taking Matthew banning you in order for you to stop wasting time on the internet? I say this because after Matthew told you to just take some time off & didn't ban you as you asked, then you post "I will post less, then."
It's time you grew up & practiced SELF control & not depend on others to have to control you like a child.
Forget about being a brother until you get this important virtue under your belt. Neither do I think you should contemplate the married state for the same reason (& others). There is the single state that God may have in store for you. Pray that God's will be done, not yours, and work out your salvation without being so self-centered. Also get out more in the great outdoors & have a little fun!