You are not the only one, sweetheart. It's a really hard thing to deal with.
I feel the same way. It's so hard when I feel like my soul is being starved. I won't compromise, and put my rubber stamp on what's going on at Saint Michael's with Fr. Themann at the helm.
Someone has to fight this. It's such a desolating feeling being the "freak on the island" as my friend aptly described. We had a good example in Father Bolduc. He was a "freak on the island" too, so his company makes me feel not so lonely. But thank God my family is with me, and I have a few friends who can see clearly what happened.
I just have to put even more confidence in Our Lady, and pray even more that she watches over this family with her tender loving care, and all the rest of the people suffering because they don't have the sacraments. We sure need it.