I am honestly a little speechless from all these replies of yours and these people "criticizing" my post (the thumbs down are not very nice at all....I just don't get it).
I am a real person, going through real difficult time and I did not come to this forum to get criticized, judged or else.
I am sorry if my post has grammar errors (?) but I was trying to find someone to talk to, to open up to, as I have been having serious issues doing it with family and friends.
I understand where you all stand, but let me tell you, it is a little "weird" to judge me, then talk about "God" like this .. like I am not normal, or something.
I apologize for disturbing your happy forum and/or for not waiting at least 1 week to post my story after I registered.
Although I did not find what I was looking for (just some NORMAL people to share opinions with, different points of view to discuss, not a fix to my problems) thanks to all who replied to my post and only that.
Goodbye.
Monnatale,
A lot of traditional Catholics do not really have a spiritual life but use the religion to political and social ends. Many are not interested in interior conversion and may not even live a life of prayer. There are a lot of others who who are spiritually and psychologically ill.
Please, pay them no mind. It's irrelevant what they think and they have absolutely no say-so in how you are perceived or judged by God (although many probably think they do).Many, many women have been in your position. The modern ethos has removed God from our lives and has placed before us many idols like money, politics, obsession, drug addiction, race hate, social strife, rage... For women, our vulnerability is the desire to be loved and cared for by a man so, IMO, the devil is using modern relationships to spiritually warp us and lead us into pain and despair.
You are not any different at all than most women who've been lured in; there's nothing wrong with you, in that respect.
The problem is that you've been essentially living and behaving as husband and wife with this person, which has caused VERY deep attachment and enmeshment. You may have great positive regard for him and empathize with him deeply, but in reality you are not married -- I'm not saying that to judge and condemn. Having so much emotional and spiritual risk without commitment is causing you profound psychological and spiritual pain. Many, many of us have been there.
Please do not despair! The pursuit of conversion is ALWAYS possible, even at our last breath! God can give you the strength to let go of this person. Also, IMO, if we're thinking about a person, place or thing more than we think of God, that person place or thing has supremacy over God which is not what God has intended. I would transfer any feelings of love, attachment, suffering, or hope from that person to God and ask God to show you, clearly, what to do. I am sure, though, that God would tell any of us in your position to pursue God and seek conversion/let this person go.
God has everything you need or want. The person you're involved with and the people on this forum do not, whatever their intentions.
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