J.M.J.
Name: James.
Age: 34
Location: Middle GA (Byron/Warner Robins)
Occupation: Night auditor (11 p -7 a) at a local hotel.
Background: I'm a convert that entered the Church Easter 2012. I was agnostic the 7 years prior. I felt God tugging away at me. I attended my local Baptist "church" a time or two before I knew He was calling me to the Church. I had an unexplainable need to go to Confession. I believe that my past experience attending the NO with my grandparents when I was very young had an influence that God used. I discovered Catholic's Come Home and found out my local parish was starting a program soon, so I started attending that. I also started to pray the Rosary daily. I was prompted to find a parish near by that looked, and felt more like a catholic parish. I found St. Joseph's in Macon. It was great for a little while. I started attending R.C.I.A. there and upon completion was confirmed. I was attending the NO there while also attending the FSSP parish about 2 hrs away as often as I could until I started trucking and fell away.
I was briefly introduced to tradition by my R.C.I.A. sponsor. I've tried going back to the NO parish here and there over the past year to get back to attending Mass, but after I had been exposed to the TLM, the NO feels Protestant to me. I can just tell by looking at the NO and TLM side by side. Combined with the scandals of the Pope, Bishops, and priests, the destruction of the Faith, and the wreckovation of once beautiful parishes, I have to conclude that I can no longer accept VII and the NO. I do still believe, for better or for worse, that the Pope is the Pope, scandalous and heretical as he may be. I believe that we're still called to obedience in what he says that is correct and aligns with tradition, but respectful disobedience to his shenanigans.
I'm looking to find the Faith as it's been handed down to us by the Apostles. I don't want some watered down, heterodox, knock-off. I've stopped attending the NO, and the FSSP is too far for regular attendance. Since I can no longer in good conscience submit to VII and the NO, I don't feel that I can attend the FSSP which also holds the NO as valid. My rolls-can-barely is holding on by the dirt caked on it. Thankfully there is also a SSPX chapel here in GA, however it is also about 2 hrs away.
I'm still very new to the Faith over-all, and I still have A LOT to learn. I look forward to learning from, and with y'all. I can't think of anything else at the moment. I hope this doesn't seem too scattered. I'm fairly simple minded with a shoddy memory, and "uncircuмcised lips" as Moses once put it. I'm also pretty shy so please have patience with me.