Welcome, Nandarani!
May God and Our Lady guide you and keep you safe in your spiritual journey.
I like very much the "Letter to the Friends of the Cross" and "The Love of Eternal Wisdom" because crosses will always be part of our life and these literatures can help us through the trials. The Catechism Explained by Spirago and Clarke is a very good companion too.
Your devotion to Our Lady is very good and can benefit more souls once you consecrate yourself to Our Lady. You might be interested in joining the army of Our Lady: http://fsspx.asia/en/militia-immaculatae-asia
Ave Maria!
Thank you for the little prayer for me and for encouragement! It means a lot to me.
It feels lonely being me at times but the more I pray, the more things are in the right perspective. Protestants do not have Our Lady. Imagine wanting to pray the rosary at age 6 and having no outlet for that. When I got older, the one thing I liked about the Episcopal Church was the Book of Common Prayer which is a very small version of the Divine Office. Also imagine life without any devotions, and there are so many good ones within Catholicism. Imagine no miracles. Imagine a toothless religion that produces confusion in someone like myself - yet I didn't fully grasp the meaning of all this until a couple of years ago when I finally had time to pray... and that was a g r a d u a l process led on by the fact that I felt happy doing that, more happy than doing anything else, and the contrast became evident with former mental satisfactions losing their appeal. I used to care about such things as... 'will the white race survive?' or 'will Germany, Sweden, and Europe in general survive the huge flood of people radically changing the status quo?' Now, I clearly see that all that is misguided and a waste of valuable time and very short-sighted given that race doesn't matter and God is in control of what is happening. I just wish Germany hadn't given up its Catholicism in the process, because it is sorely needed now to cope, and to counteract. Hawai'i is totally multicultural and we have much more peace here than I saw on the mainland from afar last year and during the election.
Though with a very active mind I certainly do go online particularly in connection with my 'work' which is trading on the foreign exchange which is intellectually stimulating and challenging so I enjoy it, and humbling.
I have come to see everything as penance. Since I never married I get to see myself up close and personal and fully understand why the saints say the things they do about themselves (well, as fully as possible). Trading teaches me and chastens me, and prayer never fails to renew me: even when I can hardly get myself to sit and complete what I do, but make myself, all the way to yesterday, which for some reason was far out ahead of other days in terms of depth. Today by contrast, of course, was abysmally distracted but I kept at it, and completed.
I have pulled up the link given to me; it is based in Asia. Probably there is something like it in the West. The Indian name Nandarani came to me another way than by being born having it. It would definitely help me to find a way to join Mary's army. I have the intention of getting to the point where I can consecrate myself to Her Sorrowful and immaculate Heart and do intend to use the St. Louis de Montfort consecration for which I've been reading the meditations - interrupted to read The Golden Arrow, the Revelations of Sister Mary of St. Peter - since I have given out maybe 15 Holy Face medals over the last several years to my relatives, and to strangers here living on the street. I love to do that at certain junctures; I never force it if I don't feel inclined to do it over a period of weeks or months. Some of the people on the street here are not mentally unsound or spiritually unaware. I want to add that Dr. Thomas Droslekey's work, his videos online taking the history of the Church from earliest times right through the present and his site, have been very heartwarming for me; he inspired me to get Behold Thy Mother (Servite prayerbook) which I have not delved into much yet and to devotion to Mary's Sorrowful and Immaculate Heart such as I am so bad at doing but will not quit trying... ...and are a treasure trove. Like anybody else he has his detractors.
He looks to St. John of God to help him realize that kind of understanding which is truly surrendered to what others think of what we do, say. He has had controversy and been disliked. He has survived and presses on.
Dr. Droleskey is in pain now because of a chronically bad back, I pray for him every day. He keeps on writing and is strongly wired with love for the Church, which I also am - he lights the fuse with his social doctrine of the Church. I think I was born with it... He has helped me 'catch up' with my own history through his brilliant combination of devotional knowledge, history, and I guess it is called 'political science.' He writes of current events at length and with updates based upon the saints in the calendar, at great length. That's the part I love.