I'm copy/pasting from my intro and then I will get into more detail. Please pray for my salvation, my spiritual director, and that God will show me His will for me.
My name is Wesley
I was a heretic and a blasphemer. I have obtained mercy because I was ignorant.
Through my own most grievous fault, I was an enemy of the Church and thought I was doing God's will. Pray for my salvation please.
Lord have mercy
Christ have mercy
Recently, God has given me much grace. I can see spirits. Angels are everywhere in the sky, and when they are flying through the sky they look just like UFOs. They are lightning fast and defy the "laws of physics."
I was given a thorn in my flesh, an angel of Satan to buffet me.
There is a fallen angel who follows me everywhere I go, day and night. God told me the exact same thing He told His Apostle, St Paul - "My grace is sufficient." He truly spoke to me.
I am having trouble discerning the Lord's will for me at this time. Please pray that He will use me as an instrument of His will.
I'm a wretched man, and unless our righteousness surpasses that of the Scribes and Pharisees, we will in no wise enter into the Kingdom of Heaven. Please pray for my salvation.
Have mercy on me, a sinner.
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As I mentioned earlier, I have a thorn in my flesh. There is literally an angel of Satan that follows me everywhere I go, day and night. It is sentient, it is able to hear my thoughts, manipulate my imagination AND my thoughts, and speak directly into my mind. It can hear my thoughts AND speak into my mind. It wants me in Hell, I am certain.
God said to me, and I am certain this was God, "My grace is sufficient." I was being attacked by many demons and praying while they were all attacking me. I don't know how long this went on for, but it was a long time. God sent an angel who removed all but one of them and said "He heard you." Right after that, our merciful LORD said to me, "My grace is sufficient."
The demon attacks me with blasphemous impurity whenever I pray or look at holy images. The more I pray, the less it seems able to do.
Please pray for me. I know that God gives sufficient grace for all souls to be saved. God also saved my life one time and said to me in a vision "you get life." He was holding the keys to life and death.
I have often wondered, has He revealed to me that I am predestined or would that be presumption?
"You get life." Months later "My grace is sufficient." Can I be assured that I am predestined?
I love our LORD and I am terrified of losing Him. This demon is much more powerful than me and I can't describe what I have been through.
It confuses me so much that I am not sure if I have committed mortal sins or not. I don't know what to confess. I can't describe how it confuses me. I now know why God told the ancient Jєωs to kill witches. Magic is indescribably evil. It does magic on me every day. I can barely remember the previous day when I wake up, although the magic isn't the only reason. Before all this happened, I was possessed and I ended up in a psych ward. They gave me an injection that blocks my dopamine and serotonin from binding. It almost killed me and it made me unable to think and feel for a long time. The Lord saved my life when I was laying in bed about to die. That leads to another concern. I use a dopaminergic drug to compensate for the fact that my dopaminergic system got messed up. It is legal, but still a drug, and the "high" is the therapeutic effect I need from it. It is called tianeptine. I am having trouble discerning how to exercise prudence and temperance. I can't see a doctor because I don't want to be sectioned (forced to go back to a psych ward and get on the poison they call "medication"). This whole experience has led me to be concerned about the church's stance on psychology. Modernism is seriously hurting the Church and the world. I saw many people in there who, now that I know exactly how to spot possession, I know for a fact were not mentally ill but possessed. Now they are possessed AND have injections in them that make them unable to think and feel. I can spot possession very easily because I have been possessed. I know what it looks like because I went through it. I know what the spirits of confusion do.
Psychology is of Satan. The DSM is literally made up by a bunch of atheists who think they can diagnose neurological disorders based on "patterns of behavior." It is a faith based religion akin to evolution. Why is the Church endorsing psychology? I am not worried about it affecting doctrine or dogma, but I KNOW it will do serious harm to the flock. It IS Satanic in every way.
I'm not possessed, and I don't think an exorcism would do anything. He told me His grace is sufficient and His Holy angel removed all but one of the demons.
As I said, I was a heretic and a blasphemer before coming back to His Holy Church, the Catholic Church. I have not been perfected in Love and I am afraid of losing our LORD forever. I know that His Heart is Sacred and perfect in every way and I don't want to lose Him. I'm such a wretched man and my sins are many.
I have talked to my spiritual director about this but he is very busy. I am going to talk to him more when he has time. He told me not to worry about the demon and to focus on God's Love.
Please pray for my salvation. If anyone has counsel to give, please give me counsel.
And yes, I can see spirits. I see demons every day (they are in churches, every house I see, the sky etc..). I am almost certain many of the spirits I see in the air are in fact angels. There are MANY of them. They look just like UFOs look on camera and they are FAST. Some of them have bright lights, and some of them have no lights and appear dark in the sky. One of them flew right by me when I was praying the Rosary, and the angel was faster than anything or anyone I have ever seen in my life as they went by me.
When spirits are close and not flying, they look different. They are almost completely invisible look almost like the heat that comes off of a fire but not exactly. It is hard to explain.
Why would God give me this grace and how can I use it for the Church? I see demons in some people. Should I be working with an exorcist?
Please pray for my salvation and please pray that the Lord will let me serve Him with the gift He has given me. I know that our gifts are supposed to be used or the good of the Church. I just need to know what He wants me to do.
Once again, please pray for my salvation. I am afraid of losing our LORD and I have sinned against the virtues of hope and faith as a result, many times. The demon has driven me to despair quite often. I don't want to despair, but I do.