Hello, nice to meet you all. Let me tell you a little about myself.
My name is Alex and I don't come from a very Catholic family. I was born and slightly raised as a NO Catholic, but the only time I went to Mass as a child was if I slept over my friend's house, and the only time I went to confession was the one time when everybody in class did it for first confession. My only education regarding the Faith consisted of four and a half years at a Catholic school.
After being an agnostic for the majority of my life, I finally came back to the one, true Faith (kind of) when I was about 18. That was two years ago. However, when I say I came back, I mean I really came back to the NO Church, and I grasped firm to all of its teachings. Thankfully, by the grace of God, I felt a calling to the priesthood, and because of this, I didn't fall into the common NO trap of being spoon-fed and believing whatever is said by an authority, as I felt it necessary to learn everything I could about the Church and Her glorious history, if I was to be a good priest. This is how I became acquainted with the traditional movement and its resistance to the NO church.
It has only been about six months since I started taking the traditional Catholic stance seriously, as I was always afraid of being "disobedient" and throwing my soul into the pits of hell. However, I feel comfortable now in rejecting the NO church and her new mass, and I will not ever willingly participate in a NO mass again.
However, this embrace of traditionalism has kind of put my vocation as a priest in peril. To be honest, I'd really like to get married, but all signs have pointed to me being a priest and I feel like I would be disobeying God if I did not do so. A few NO priests eagerly wanted me to join their seminary, but I refuse to because God only knows what is taught there. I have looked into joining the SSPX seminary, but there are a few things holding me back, like lack of finances and not having ever attended an SSPX chapel before. I am also concerned in which direction the Society is going, and I do not wish to be in one of their seminaries if their plan is to reunite with Rome and follow the same path as the FSSP.
Anyway, I think I've rambled on long enough, and I guess I've made an odd introduction of myself, as I've given you both a small life story and my current concerns. If any of you could please give me your advice on my current predicament, I would be grateful. A few of my questions are:
Should I continue looking into joining an SSPX seminary?
Should I be looking into joining another organization's seminary?
Should I just say "forget it" and find myself a traditional Catholic wife?
May God bless you all, and thank you for taking the time to read about me and my problems.
-Alex