I wouldn't call this despair. God will win, ultimately. But objectively speaking, I have my doubts that I'll live to see it in this life. In the meantime, I expect to behold nothing but reckless, needless destruction until the end of my days.
I don't plan on seeing the restoration of the faith in my lifetime, all indications seem to point to the destruction continuing for a long time after I'm gone. Who knows how long before God stops the madness? Could go for many thousands of years for all we know.
At any rate, you might take a bit of solitude in this......
....no matter how much tragedy with which history is strewn, Christ moves towards His glorious triumph. With His resurrection was the announcement that He would have his victory, when He emerged from the tomb, He proved that there was no force, no power greater than He and He proved that if He was invincible, then that which He would establish is also invincible, namely His Church.
It really does not matter therefore that throughout history the Church suffer terrific blows, that it at times – and these times almost have always prevailed – that the Church suffer it’s terrible embarrassments, it’s setbacks.
Despite all this, despite all appearances and despite whatever losses, Christ is triumphing in the Church and He is proving His power, His invincibility and He is succeeding in doing what He came here to the world to achieve, and God the Father is fulfilling the promises of His creation.
If it were not so, He would never have created anything to begin with. If it could be, that Almighty God could set in motion anything He did not command absolute power over, or out of which He could not draw whatever He wished, then He would never had done anything like that and He indeed would not be infinite in the first place.
We have it in our power to participate or we have it in our choice to be turned away, it is strictly within our choice and whatever grace is necessary is within our grasp. - Fr. Wathen