I can't even believe that you are still thinking about that. What are you doing? Monitoring me? If so, then please stop. I don't like being monitored.
Back in high school I knew an odd kid named Albert who was a big fan of the movie
Highlander. One day, in the middle of English class and entirely unprovoked, he announced to me that he had a burning secret from which he needed to unburden himself: It seemed Albert had come to believe that he was an immortal; that no physical illness or injury could harm him, and that he knew that this amazing power would soon be put to the test in a swordfight with his most hated enemy (a guy named Dave who had stolen his girlfriend). He was completely serious about this.
While I can assure you that I have not spent the past two decades continually ruminating on this revelation, I can nonetheless recall it with perfect clarity because it made an impression on me. Specifically, it made the impression that Albert was a melodramatic, self-centered adolescent with some pretty pathological delusions of grandeur. Your thread musing about the possibility of your being the prophesied Monarch who will restore Christendom made a similar impression on me. I find your protestations that it shouldn't a little disingenuous.
If by "monitoring" you mean "read a post you'd written," then I plead guilty as charged to being both the "perpetrator" and "victim" of such monitoring... because, you know,
this is an internet forum. As such, your desire to not be "monitored" is an easy one to fulfill - just stop posting.
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Its hard enough trying to stay focused on God, and the road to salvation.
Very true. You're not doing yourself any favors in this regard by posting whatever childish fantasies, paranoid suspicions, expressions of foppish vanity, or puerile insults that happen to float through your mind's transom at any given moment.
Take a break from posting. Study the Faith and the saints. Pray and fast. Mortify your flesh. Conquer your passions. Do this and it will be that much easier to focus on God and the Salvation of your soul.