Whether or not you join a monastery, you need to develop a spiritual life. Have you ever spent any time in a monastery? Have you ever been on retreat?
IF, if you cannot develop a taste for spiritual reading outside of a monastery, then I would say you are not fitted for a monastery.
What would make me fit for the monastery would be the high level of Faith that I would achieve while being there. That what be the fuel that would keep me going. All the other stuff would help me get there.
While I am no expert on monasteries, I believe that in order to be admitted, even on trial basis, you must impress the abbot that you are suitable, that you thirst for God and the monastic life. One sign of that is probably that you were interested enough to do basic reading on subjects that are related. Much of monastic life involves reading and contemplation. If you don't have the capacity for that, then you may need to either develop it or think of a different vocation in life. Maybe you should apply to be a tertiary first, and that would help you discern if you are on the right track.