A meandering rumination:
I recall first learning of the Barnes Review (the cσncєnтrαтισn cαмρ Money issue referenced on the website/link Matthew found) while at the seminary in Winona.
Bishop Williamson had mentioned it in one of our spiritual conferences.
I remember at the time wondering to myself, "What in the hell are we talking about the flippin' h0Ɩ0cαųst for in a spiritial conference?"
That, coupled with my scruples about supplied jurisdiction (and consequently, the liceity of me even being in the seminary at all), and the very recent 911 stuff (i.e., I was in the seminary for the momentous 2001-2002 academic year, which also saw the fall of Campos), were all militating against my vocation.
Everything in my mind was screaming, "This stuff is crazy! Get out!"
I recall being very excited that the SSPX had just recently paraded into Rome for the 2000 pilgrimage, and how I had hoped the Fellayists would trump the Williamsonites, and that +Fellay's desire for an accord even back in 2001 would present a solution to my scruples, as well as ridding the Society of the looney's like Bishop Williamson.
But I was a recent half-convert from the indult world.
Legalism was everything to me.
The doctrine of supplied jurisdiction was so......"theoretical," versus the very practical opposition to (and condemnation by) the Pope.
My vocation was doomed before I ever walked in the door.
Reflecting back on it all, I see clearly that God had put me there for a reason:
I had lived and suffered, interiorly, from the very affliction which now weakens the SSPX.
God wanted that from me, so that I could later defend Tradition from an intimate knowledge of what is causing the betrayal of it.
After my abrupt departure from the seminary, the "pressure" was off.
I could then take my time to study and internalize supplied jurisdiction and the SSPX apologetics (e.g., SiSiNoNo/Angelus article "The 1988 Consecrations: A Theological Study"), as well as the seemingly peripherally related issues on the greater crisis in the world at large.
This allowed me to recover my strength.
A maturation of the ideas of Christ the King (particularly in the writings of Fr. Denis Fahey) and the wider battle which included economics, politics, monetary policy, etc. convinced me that the crazy and irrelevant things Bishop Williamson spoke about were not so off-point as I used to think they were.
I was seeing at a higher, broader level now.
But I couldn't do that before leaving the seminary, because the pressure of so many conflicting themes (excommunication, invalid confessions, necessity or not?, 911, Campos capitulating, h0Ɩ0cαųst, etc, etc) were all too much: I had jumped into the frying pan too soon.
I believe many SSPXers (including the General Coucil and many district Superiors) suffer the same suppressed battle, and it is what accounts for the large defection movement away from Archbishop Lefebvre:
They were all willing to follow his magnetic and charismatic personality, and had a personal trust in him. But many never acquired a comfort with his later positions. And when he was gone, the internal conflicts and the internal monologues of many presented themselves for the first time. With the peace which was brought by the great Archbishop and the authority which caused that peace, the unacknowledged fires of scruples, legalism, and doubt emerged for the first time, or at least persisted for the first time.
It is what explains the passionate persecution of Bishop WIlliamson by the likes of Fr. Pfluger, Bishop Fellay, et al:
They see in him their own damnation, and hell or high water, they are going to get a deal, and no "crazy Bishop Williamson" is going to be allowed to come between thee SSPX and conciliar Rome!
I know this from having experienced it, and now I write about it.
This explanation (i.e., the psychological attack) is the charitable explanation, as opposed to the mole/Masonic subversion explanation. This latter may be the angle which causes Rome's motivations. But for the SSPX, most of them are quivering in their boots (and have been for decades).
They can't wait any longer.
I understand this.
When a mania builds within a man, he can't think straight. Yes, he can reason perfectly well, but those reasonings will not pacify the fires of doubt and the subsequent emotions which have gained an undue influence over his intellectual faculties.
Whatever his perfect reasonings dictate and conclude, they will not smother the butterflies swirling around in his bowels.
But at the end of the day, the truth was this:
Williamson had/has a broader view of the crisis, and therefore was not subject to the psychological attacks of the devil.
He was right all along.
But Menzingen was never able to internalize this in the post-Lefebvre SSPX, and the devil used it to divide, then sink, the Society.A meandering rumination:
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