Also, I didn't know you could say the N-word on Cathinfo. It definitely makes this more of a grown up conversation. Not!
All right, let's take this particular example, since it's so difficult to parse through all of the other modernist /secular / Jewish errors you've demonstrably internalized into your thinking process.
I understand that you're a very young man, and, Lord knows, at your age, I had internalized more than my fair share of modernist / secular / Jewish errors. However, unlike you, I had little to no interest in Traditional Catholicism, so you're off on a far better foot than I was, in that sense, and are to be commended. I apologize for allowing my exasperation to get the better of me and dismissing you too cavalierly in the previous post. I ought to endeavor to build our young men up, and not tear them down. We all ought to.
That having been said, let's just look at your knee-jerk reaction to the word "nigger." It's not at all unusual; in fact it's how nearly every white person in the entire anglosphere would react nowadays to its utterance, regardless of age. But ask yourself: "why?" Is it because just uttering this word violates some Catholic dogma, or even the duty to Catholic charity? Some would answer in the affirmative. But how? My pious Catholic grandfather (an immigrant from Malta) used that word from time to time. He found black people, on the whole, extraordinarily enervating to work with, to live near (when he had to), and complained they were the single worst thing about life in America, so far as he could see. Here's the funny thing: the Maltese tend to be some of the darkest-skinned Europeans (along with Sicilians, to whom they are essentially ethnically identical), and some of them look like full-blooded Arabs (unsurprising if you know the nation's history, or have heard its language). If DNA ancestry tests are to be believed (I'm not so sure they are, but we'll put that aside), my family has some negligible amount of sub-Saharan African ancestry (something like 2 - 3%). Again, not terribly surprising - some Arab invaders may have fornicated with their Zanj slave girls, and the resultant offspring mixed into the population. What's the point in mentioning all this? Well, to illustrate why it was that, on occasion, my own grandfather was himself called "nigger" by a few fair-skinned, fair-haired, blue-eyed Americans of Northern European extraction. So who was the "Racist?" My grandfather? His paler detractors? All of the above?
My grandfather shrugged off these insults as only natural, considering he was a foreigner from a Southern European country that many people here had had no knowledge of or exposure to. He didn't bitch and moan about it, file HR complaints (or whatever the equivalent was back then), run to the open arms of the opportunist Jews at the ACLU or NAACP, or run to the news media about it. It was all part of the banter of the time and he gave as good as he got. And at no point did he - a man of redoubtable piety and Catholicity - ever suffer pangs of guilt or scruples that his use of the dreaded "N-WORD" made him a "racist" or bespoke a want of Catholic charity on his part. No, it took his pompous, college-educated, arrogant, Jewish-influenced, secularized Boomer children to level those charges at him - people with (at that time anyway) all of the Sensus Catholicus of Ruth Bader Ginsberg.
"Racism" is a non-existent category for Catholics. It's a moral category invented in the 20th Century, by Marxist Jews, as a tool for demoralization and subversion. It ought to go without saying that Catholics have no obligation to accept Marxist-Jewish moral categories. And yet, in the anglosphere, anyway, we overwhelmingly do. Why? Because it's a central part of the over-arching narrative in the cartoons we watched, the movies we've seen, the educations we received, the news we consume, the history books we read, the celebrities whose words we hear, etc. etc. etc. And why? What's the common denominator in all these things? Jewish control. Directly, in many cases (media moguls, producers, directors, publishers, etc.) and indirectly in others (gentile puppets backed by Jewish finance). Recall the words of Mayer Amschel Rothschild: "Let me issue and control the money of a nation, and I care not who makes its laws." It's all part of the Synagogue of Satan's ongoing war against Christendom. And it doesn't stop even when widespread apostasy has occurred. When there's no more Catholicity or even bare Christianity in even a Protestant sense to make war on, then the war is against "whiteness," for "whiteness" is European, and Europe was (and may yet again become) Christendom. The Jews don't make distinctions here any more than they do for themselves - a Jew is a Jew, even if he is an atheist.
So when you see yourself reacting so viscerally to the use of a word - a simple word - "nigger" - whose roots are in the Latin word "niger," which simply means "black - and you find yourself unable to even repeat it in writing, regardless of context, and defer to use of the Officially Approved Euphemistic Form (the incredibly infantile "N-Word"), you really ought to ask yourself: Why? Why do I have that reaction? In what is it based? Am I really so immune to the influences of the Enemies of Christ who control literally every public vessel of influence over the hearts and minds of the masses?