Did you make it?
No I was overcome by a flood of negative emotions at the last minute.
Felt bad about not going.
But whoever is sending me threats of doom might ambush me,
and if i go with humility I will get bullied.
Im not yet convinced i should allow myself to be bullied because it is virtuous to suffer in silence and humility.
I have changed from the past. My old ways did not serve me.