I really do not want to believe that we have not had a true pope for such a long time. The thought that the Church could be deceived for so long is amazing to me. Obviously, I will need to do many prayers on this topic, but I will also need to know where I'm supposed to start. Also, would maintaining a sedevacantist position, if I am wrong, compromise my salvation in any way? I would not want to face the unimaginable torments in Hell for all eternity.
Hello Daegus:
Although I accept the "sedevacantist" explanation of the current predicament of Holy Mother Church as the most accurate one, I find myself bereft of the competence and authority to oblige individual consciences thereto (
Deo gratias, for that is one less thing for which I will have to render an account on Doomsday): therefore, I cannot reject as Catholic those who in good faith disagree with the sedevacantist thesis (be they SSPX, N. O., etc.) so long as the integrity of the dogmas of the infallibility and the primacy of the Roman Pontiff as defined by the Vatican Council [the one convoked by Pope Pius IX], is kept inviolate.
I would like to add a personal reflection. As I wrote to a friend of mine recently, discussing the very substantial scholarly contributions to contemporary liturgical discourse by non-sedevacantists (which, I must candidly admit, very much dwarfs those made by sedevacantists in this field), "I hate being labelled a 'sedevacantist.'
The New Liturgical Movement blog makes me wish sometimes I weren't a sedevacantist, but faith must be founded upon reason and not sentiment (especially when emotion is self-serving). My life would be far easier as a non-sedevacantist, even perhaps attaining to a brilliant academic career [
ed. Yeah right!]. However, I know too much to go back. Although I lack the authority and competence of imposing it upon others, I do acknowledge (even despite myself) that what is properly understood as 'sedevacantism' is a non-negotiable fact. I can never call Ratzinger 'the Holy Father,' or pretend that 'Vatican II' can be explained away." [Note: I am not insinuating that theological virtue of faith in itself is contingent upon this or that thesis postulated by non-authoritative sources (both clerical and lay, because whether we wear a Roman collar or not, we're pretty much in the same boat here) but in the practical order certain key praxes immediately pertaining to the faith are; for example, which Chapel to attend for Holy Mass and the Sacraments, which Priest to choose as our Father Confessor, etc.]. My point is that we are to carefully cultivate a faith shorn of personal sentiment and egocentricity, a faith founded on solid doctrine and nourished by devout and persevering prayer, self-abnegation and works of charity and penance.
I don't think we are ought to
like the fact that we are not in "full" communion with Rome (whether because one rejects the current claimant of the Apostolic See as anti-Pope, or in the sense one does not obey all of his directives and heed all of his teachings even though he is recognized as the Supreme Pontiff). It is not the way things are supposed to be, and we must not give ourselves over to a sort of tepid complacency that is ultimately counter-intuitive and self-destructive. We must seek to reform and to better ourselves so that we may contribute to the restoration of Holy Mother Church and the rehabilitation of civilization (of you can call it that!), rather than take comfort in some hyper-idealized past that has been somehow crystallized in the present. We have to look to Jesus and Mary to guide us beyond a nostalgia, or a paranoia, or a cynicism, that betrays an unwholesome attachment to self and lack of filial trust in Divine Providence; and to seek a way for future generations to attain to the profession and practice of the holy faith, whole and inviolate as taught by Holy Mother Church throughout the ages, by any means within out grasp (above all, by our own example).
The fact that you are approaching this topic in a humble, earnest and prayerful manner is a sign that you are seeking to please God, which is a very edifying example. If you maintain this attitude whilst doing research upon this and other controversial subjects, whilst continuing to cultivate the interior life, it would be morally impossible for you to fall into the formal heresy or schism that would reprobate you. Just keep saying Our Lady's Holy Rosary!
Anyways, these are my personal observations. I can be (and mostly have been) wrong, so don't cite me as an authority (please)...