I guess where my thoughts are at is, after looking into Orthodoxy, this is the best I've been able to find with regards to historical consistency in ecclesiology and Faith. My goal is to get as close to Christ as I can, and I humbly admit to being a fallible person who could get things wrong (although I've been rigorous as best as I can so far so that I don't have things wrong). Therefore, it's important for me to keep discussing, praying and reading so that where I'm at is less a sclerotic act of will power, but more a natural equilibrium on the Truth.