pax, you are so lost. Seriously lost.
And you confirmed this to all of us by saying "you don't read articles from heretics and schismatics". Do you know what heresy and schism even are?
If only I was so bold when the Novus Ordo first had its death grip around my soul. Then I would have been a traditional Catholic much earlier.
You are in my prayers.
heresy -- denying a truth revealed by the holy Roman Catholic Church
schism -- refusing communion with the subjects of the legitinate Successor of Blessed Peter
An example of heresy would be denying the truth that the laity cannot judge teachings the Pope has bound the Church to believe.
An example of schism would be refusing to attend a Mass promulgated by the Pope as a legitimate Rite of the Church.