"... the supreme law of the Church which is the salvation of souls. If a priest is one who uses the Sacraments as a weapon, then I leave. Saving my soul is not of primary interest to him. I’m not going to be a sacrificial pawn in his game of chess...."
I remember Fr. Hesse saying: "If you think you have to be holy to receive communion, then you are a heretic; this was condemned by the Church...you don't receive communion because you are holy, you receive communion TO BECOME HOLY!"
Not sure about this following link, but it is relevant...
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http://thecatechist.com/the-eucharist-is-not-a-prize-for-the-perfect/"...But this teaching is original to Pope Saint Pius X! The great enemy of modernism.
In 1910, during the papacy of Pius X, the Congregation of the Sacraments recalled the error of the Jansenist heretics, “who maintained that the Most Holy Eucharist was a prize, not medicine of human weakness” (Decree Quam Singulari).
The Jansenist heresy emerged and spread strongly in the 17th century. Its defenders claimed to defend the dignity and the revaluation of the Eucharist, in line with the guidance of the Trent Council. However, in practice, this very pious-looking excuse resulted in a strict behavior that were very distant from the mercy of the Gospel.
The central idea of the Jansenists was that Holy Communion was a sublime reward for the good practice of virtues and severe penitence. And so the poor sinners (the vast majority of Christians), who often fell, were long periods without Eucharist. Even though they were sorry, they had to show that they were “humble” and not receive communion.
This austerity discouraged the weakest from pursuing holiness (Daniel-Rops, volume VI of Church History).
Quite different from this heresy, the Church preaches that even those who have any addiction or are crawling on the path of holiness must confess and receive the Eucharist. It is enough that he sincerely wishes to amend himself, and wishes to return to God. It is necessary to get up and start again, on each humiliating relapse!
It is harmful to the soul to receive Eucharist in mortal sin. It is also harmful to imagine that one must be almost a saint worthy of the altar in order to be able to approach the Holy Communion.
Whoever has a sick soul because of sin cannot be discouraged. He must persevere in the search for healing, which is Jesus..."
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Holy First Saturday of June everyone+