So this I’ll have to say the priest that gives the Latin service here at the Holy Ghost 10 minutes from my house put out the letter recently basically just falling in line with the bishop. They have a meeting scheduled to talk about the changes and I’m new here I don’t want to just butt in as I’m new to the parish. Maybe I should I don’t know. I guess to speak to someone and not just read about someone else’s opinions about them. I’m in no position to have an opinion. It’s not my parish. My last priest in fort Edward ny was a child molester sent to us from Massachusetts. I stuck up for him not knowing and he ended up moving in across the street after retirement with a boy it turns out he was molesting and I looked like a fool. That was 20 years ago a little more. I wish I was making this up. But I just come to my senses and bam tradition is outlawed. What a mess.
It may not be clear to you yet, but the diocese/bishop/diocesan priests is part of the Counterfeit Catholic Church. It is the end times deception, the mystery of iniquity. Whatever you do, do not go anywhere near the Novus Ordo mess.
You have been given enough grace so far to prefer the TLM and to be devastated by it being taken away from you. Those things show that God is working on you. But it is very complicated, and if you remain in touch with the deceivers, you will probably be deceived. Call one of the traditionally-ordained priests in one of the small chapels mentioned above (Fr. Oswalt maybe). Do not call any diocesan priests. Tell the traditional priest your story.
And don't worry about tradition being "outlawed" in the Counterfeit Church. That is part of God's plan. The true Roman Catholic Church, the Church that keeps the true Catholic Faith and Morals, can never be outlawed. The real Sacraments from real priests can never be outlawed. Yes, they might be hard to find. But if you want them bad enough, you will find them. It will be like the early days of the Church, the catacombs.
Receiving the Sacrament of Penance worthily will help you begin to see things more clearly. You should focus on that first. And pray your Rosary daily. All will be well if you keep the true Faith.