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You quit on Our Lord as if He is not aware of all the wicked priests?  Why do that?  Don't cut off your nose to spite your face!  Why allow a sorry bunch of perverts to damn your soul?  If you cannot find a Mass to attend, at least pray the Rosary, your morning and evening prayers, grace before and after meals, and read the Missal on Sunday.  Give alms directly to those in need if you cannot give to your local parish.  You can support Fr. Chazal in Asia, Fr. Pfeiffer in the US, Bp. W. in England, Fr. Fuchs on the Continent, Dom Thomas Aquinas in S. America.
Please don't just give up!  But know that if you do, Our Lord will likely pursue you!

You need to make a clear difference between what is the True Faith, and the people that run and belong to the Church organization. On this earth, The Holy Catholic Church is composed by sinners that err, but the Faith is truly divine. At the end, it is only your soul who will stand judgment before Our Lord.  Just focus on the salvation of your precious soul and pray much to the Holy Ghost for guidance, in the midst of human error.

If you are not going to be a Catholic, how will you get absolution for your sins?
You can make an act of contrition instead of going to confession, but you must be sincere, and if you hold to any heresies you do not get into heaven.

You must be spiritually part of the body of Christ +++ to get into heaven, and that means not holding to any heresies, like protestantism.

What is happening is you see yourself as more Catholic than the local priests.
Maybe you are. You should be the priest and not them. Go to the SSPX and you will get traditional priests who you can be sure are Catholic.

Catholic is the religion, it is not being ordained.
It is possible to be ordained and not a Catholic ( outside the church for heresy)
Same thing with the "Pope" he is outside the church for heresy.

If you are not careful you will become a much feared "dogmatic sedevacantist" who says that the church which purports to be the Catholic church is not the church but a heretical sect of impersonators and imposters. I am tempted to this often, but I always think that the adherents of such a church are merely in error and ignorance and not willfully trying to start a new religion. But I blame the top.