Wow! Those are great questions, Keph.
My story is long. I won't bore you with it, but suffice it to say that it was the hardest, most painful thing I've ever done. But my choices were to either close my eyes to what was going on or accept the one and only conclusion that fit. Since I had committed myself to the Truth, the whole Truth, and only the Truth years before, I didn't really have a choice.
Question two: I would hope that I had the courage of John the Baptist to say, "It is not lawful..."
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