Meh, I'll just start over and begin a new thread.
So...
I hardly ever participate in discussions about SSPX and the like, but I feel compelled for some reason to now.
1. I generally attend the Novus Ordo Mass, one run by a priest who has folks kneel during the Eucharist and it is celebrated ad orientum.
2. When I can, I try to attend FSSP Mass on Fridays.
3. I do not attend SSPX Mass, because I am unsure if it is in communion with Rome.
4. I do not believe in becoming a sede because that would be leaving the Church that Christ began.
Now, everyone is arguing for the primacy of their type of worship here in the Catholic world. N.O., FSSP folk, SSPX, sedes...and this is what you call division. Everything is so damned divided.
When I converted to the Faith a little over ten years ago, I left the Protestant world. I used to be a Baptist. When I left that nebula of confusion, I left being disgusted with the divided community, the theological confusion, the self righteousness of some, and the cliquishness of others.
Here, in Catholic Land, I have found all of it again. Yet, I cannot abandon the Faith, because it IS the Faith. So, it's not like Protestantism, where I can just leave and do my own thing (which was not wholesome; being a loner Christian is unadvisable).
But to top it all off, not only is there this division in the Catholic world I find myself in, but Catholics generally (all kinds) are difficult to get along with here in the middle of America. It has taken a lot of effort on my part to reach out to people who'd prefer to stay in their own comfort zones--and what I've established with the few I've encountered has been difficult.
My point?
Something is wrong, here. Obviously, VII is a screw up. But at this point, I refuse to believe that the Pope is not the vicar of Christ. If he is not, then the whole priesthood is compromised, and there's no way to tell who is a "real" priest, and who is not. Something is wrong. There may be bad priests and bishops, and they may go to Hell, but even in Hell, these men are still priests, and they are still given their authority from God.
The interior struggles in the Church like this make me want to quit--and they have certainly made it easy for me to miss Mass. Because, if the Mass I am attending is possibly invalid, then why go? But maybe it's valid? Lol. Authority is destroyed on Earth, 2012.