You don't realize what I meant in context when I said I would rather be Orthodox. I would rather believe in an actual visible members of the hierarchy than the current sedevacantist belief that there are no reigning members of the hierarchy with jurisdiction, i.e. there is a "Church" without a visible leadership at all that was established by Christ that was to be city on the hill until the end of time.
The Orthodox's explanation for their denial of being Catholic is easier to swallow from a standpoint of theology than the sedevacantist empty hierarchy position. Sure you can throw a Bellarmine quote about the papacy, but can you find one theologian who believes that there can be no reigning office of jurisdiction in any diocese, that the teaching office of the Church can go up in smoke?
If you really believe there is an anti-Christ who pretends to be Pope, and that there are no more cardinals or bishops to elect another Pope it's far easier to swallow the Orthodox pill of theology than a mystical floating Church with floats around until the second coming.
That's not emotional at all; your position, namely a belief that the "Church" could exist in the state of complete annihilation and yet hold on through mystical belief that it is exists because you think it so through some private speculation is completely asinine.
Show me a theological exposition of what you believe in the Church. If I'm so wrong, show me why you are right. I'll listen, but I'm telling you, I've never in all my life seen any sedevacantist show me how they can believe in the Church they see it now, except those sedevacantists who believe in the material and not the formal papacy. At least they try to make sense of this mess from the stand-point of succession and jurisdiction.