Thank you all so much. I realize that this is THE thing for my life, is trusting in God, praying and doing His will. I agree that I was not "forced" into conversion. I had been going along with my communications with my family and then the other day on the phone, it all came up again ... my grandparents are 90 years old ... and when my grandmother said what she did, it reminded me of where she actually is in regard to understanding things and it scared me.
But you have all reminded me what I have been called to do and I will redouble my efforts in prayer. God Bless :)
I hope I didn't come off as giving advice, especially that you shouldn't say
anything. I was just remembering that keeping up God's Presence while with others had been key in my own life, and how much I want that back-- it's been
hard for me due to grief lately. If she's bringing up topics like death or God, she probably wants to hear something helpful (it's hard to tell, but God often does tell "ordinary" people like us).
I often used to be in "listening prayer" while visiting relatives or friends. One time an unbelieving friend was scared because she was being sued by her former boss(a lawyer)! Concerned, I said something about "asking God to help" in a simple way. We agreed that she had nothing to lose with this prayer. I couldn't believe my ears when she called shortly after I got home. She had prayed with all her heart-
all the way home, and walked in to hear her phone ring: that boss had his secretary call to say he had just dropped the law-suit. He had decided suddenly: during the hour we were discussing God over coffee... That isn't any isolated case! Things like that happened in front of my husband (I'm so glad he found a strong faith before he died!) Some music students also said things like that.
So, she went to church on her own after that. I didn't discuss doctrine because she knew a lot and she was too upset to deal in "apologetics." I've seen miracles happen like that because God really wants those people who don't know how to believe. A novena can really help (there's one I'll always treasure), but it doesn't take one to "work miracles" necessarily. I think you will know what to do in meditation, because you seem to really love and care. God is more willing to change us than we are. Could we can pray for each-other? Wherever two or three agree, some great changes can happen. I would be so thrilled to see my Dad and others convert!!
God Bless,
AnneCatherine
